Silence

I have decided to say nothing. :D It feels a lot better this way.

Etchoserang Dinedepensahan ang Sarili

The rant part. (If somebody will react again, I'm gonna jump for joy)
I admit it. Some people hate me. And I love them from hating me. There is a saying that goes.. "You are nobody if you're not talked about". Therefore, I'm not one of those. Hehe. So.. still they hate me from not being a nobody.. (which is kinda weird). And so I have concluded that those people who are in the Nobody clan hates me. Now I have realized how hard it is to be nobody. All talk but haven't proved anything yet. Haha. Trying hard ampota.
^^ I hope it's clear.

Moving on, I've got my salary for the half of the month. I'm planning buy something for myself this xmas. Every payday I make it a point to buy something worth having. Life abroad is ectremely different from the Philippines where you need to budget everything and don't let money pass through your hands without even saving a little for emergency puposes. So, I buy wisely. I only buy the necessary. Since life on earth isn't certain, I'm planning to save up for my Sss fund. I know this is an old move but yeah, I think it is important. Kung may sinuksok may may madudukot. Hehe.. So.. I need to help myself.

Ian. Ti amo da morire..

May kamuka daw ako dito. Sino? Tae.. Pangaers.

Over time, Over and Over Again (Ufffaa)

So tired from work. The OTs are just call of duty, not my personal desire (to earn extra money.. nooo!). I earn enough to support my pleasures and to help the people I need to help so yes, I don't need OTs. But since they are requesting me to do it, I have no choice. But please, if they know a thing such as "mercy", they would spare me even for a while. Hayyy.. :(

Buona notte tutti. Ci sentiamo. :| Devo riposare un'po. Prendo energia per domani. Hihi!

Luck as Destiny

Most of the people who believe in luck believe that some seemingly extra-ordinary events – good or bad – happen in their lives which are beyond their control, and such events are happening because it is written, i.e. it is their destiny.

If you strongly believe that everything in your life happens as written and you can not control or avoid it then somewhere down inside your activeness is lessened, because you believe that if you are destined to have something then you will have it anyway, and if it is not your destiny then you will never have it however hard you try. Moreover, you will stop taking credit for the good things that happen to you and thereby lose out on important confidence-building experiences of life; and at the same time you will stop bearing accountability for the bad things that happen to you and thereby lose out on learning important lessons of diligence with life. By attributing everything to destiny you be loser both ways!

When you believe in destiny you don’t put in your entire efforts because you are always skeptic about whether the thing is in your destiny at all. When you believe in destiny you believe that destiny governs your life. Destiny is active. The stronger your belief that destiny is active, more passive you be.

On the other hand, stop believing in destiny for a change. There is nothing written. No destiny. That means everything is in your control. You yourself can shape your destiny. When you will realize that there is nothing written about your life and you are in complete charge of your life you will have the reason to do everything most actively.

Isn’t active living more full of life than passive living? It is needless to say when you are active the events in your life are more in your control. Of course, it won’t always be in control, but if so happens, then that is what would have happened anyway if you had believed in destiny!

In short, believing in destiny would not change anything except making a loser of you. But by not believing in it you can take full control of your life and be active. Stop being a loser. Feel completely alive!

The Gay Lingo

I love gays. Or maybe because I'm a gay too. It is said that girls are tagged as gays once they act like gays, so yeah there's such a word as gay girls (.. the term i got from a magazine). Based on studies, our society started to accept the nature of these funny beings (gays..) in the late 80's where a lot of gay personalities were known. I can say that these people have high intellectual capabilities. Why? Because both sides of their brains are working ( feminine and the masculine side). Kidding aside, I like how gays rationalize on different situations, the way they dress and groom themselves, the way they cope with "discrimination" and most of all how they speak.

In the Philippines, there is a unique way gay talking. I have never heard of gay languages from other countries other than in my home country. So I'm half-proud. Lol. Swardspeak is a vernacular language derived from Englog (English-Tagalog) and is used by a number of gay Filipinos. By using swardspeak, Filipino gay men are able to resist the dominant culture of their area and create a space of their own.

Watch this. Have fun!

134 Days After

After almost 4 months, I'm back. What's new? A lot! Blogging will start tomorrow!

Why I Stopped Forum-ing?

I'm off to being a forum addict. To people who are internet freaks, they know what I mean. I've been active in several forums such as Rakista.com, Pinoyunderground, Banidad and recently (which I mean the latest, Teenhut.net). I'm not saying forum-ing is bad. Since 2006 I've been busy actively posting on mentioned sites. I've gained a lot of online friends from doing so. These are friends which make my cyber life extra huge (not just exchanging thoughts which friends met personally). I can say that once you start posting in forums, you'll find it hard to stop it especially if the people you're meeting are really nice. For me, it is really a good way of keeping yourself busy at the same time you can cyber-socialize.

Now, for almost a month now hindi pa ako nagoopen ng mga sites I used to spend my time with. I can say that after 3 years, I feel na sawa na ako. I spend a lilttle more time on web hopping and focusing more on the real life, which I think is "reality". More likely, I'm indulge in focusing to what really is important, family, career and love (yes, love). These are the thing I believe(strongly..) worth wasting time with. I'm 22 and I'm not getting any younger. The point? Obviouly, I should be preparing for my family's future and as well as mine.

I'm not discouraging people not to be active in forums, thread posting etc. I'm just answering the questions people are asking me especially my cyber friends. (Guys, love ko kayo..) Okerns. Bye!

Ooopss. I'll promote the sites.

www.rakista.com
www.pinoyunderground.com
www. banidad.com (i'm not sure if this is still existing)
www.teenhut.net

Sad Ako.

There is no perfect relationships. I totally agree. Trials in a relationship makes it a lot sweeter, for lessons are learned and mistakes are being cleared out. Wala lang, I finally realized how important honesty is in a relationship. Hindi dahil sa hindi ako honest ( 101% honest ako, fyi), pero I believe open communication should be praticed. I'm vocal to what I am feeling to my boyfriend. He knows me a lot, my flaws and the limitations i have. Though these are visible, there are a lot more things that he doesn't know. Things that I think if I tell him would make him think indifferently. I sometimes deny feelings of insecurities and jealousy. I don't want to look "kawawa" or whatever negative feedbacks he might think of. As we talked (yesterday), I have decided to tell him whatever that is bugging me. Since we are in a LDR, I can't help but to worry. I explained every bit of frustrations I 'm feeling, insecurities and jealousy (some are not new). After, I feel a lot more better. I cried to let it all out. And it feels so good. Thank God, he understands me. I believe him when he says "everythings fine".. and "i love you". I give him all the trust that I have, he's all worth it. I'm religiously praying for a healthy relationship. I'm sad right now, for reasons that I don't know. I'll be a lot more better tomorrow. I promise. :)

18 Months of Happiness

I feel love | God loves us | We are blessed
12-o2-o8

Facebook Madness

Advertising my Facebook account. Feel free to add me, or other wise forever hold your desire. Hohoho. :x

I would appreciate if you're playing Pet Society, Restaurant City and Sorority Life. I'm so fed up with invites for Mafia Wars, Farm Town.. Etc. I don't play them. Period.


One thing more. While browsing friend's friend's list, I accidentally found out that there's an account "Jems Camitan" + with my picture. It isn't a big thing since I know how dirty WWW is. Just want to let you know that it's f-a-k-e. Kerns? Babay!

Letter to my Birthday Boy

Dearest Mahal,

I feel so extremely sad, i wasn't able to celebrate with you on this very special day. Much as I wanted to, but I can't. Kaya nakakalungkot. :( Pero sabi ko nga tigil na ang drama, para masaya diba?
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY CHRISTIAN DE GUZMAN TABORA!! Sa wakas, tayo ay patas na, sabi ko sa iyo mabilis lng ang panahon eh. (evil laugh). As a simple gift gumawa kme ni marc ng kaartehan na alam ko gusto mo. Alam ko naman na kaya mko minahal kasi maarte ako diba? Charot. :p Pareho kasi tayong maarte. At namimiss ko na iyon. Miss n miss na kita aking 1 and only. Eto, enjoy ka ha aking bday boy!!!

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Last Na Ito.


Wahaha.. No need to explain na. :p Basta isipin mo kasama mo ako sa iyong kaarawan. Ikaw po ay aking mahal n mahal. :p Pakissssssssss.. mwaaaaa. :p

Ian

i love and miss ian. :[

Survey from Friendster.com

Sometimes friendster isn't that bad at all. Mejo lang. Hahaha. (Evil Laugh). And out of boredom, pinatulan ko..

1. kung magbubura ka ng isang tao sa friends list mo, sino yun?

Nabura ko na. matagal na.

2. Nakita mo ang ex mo nasa gilid ng kalsada at nag-aapoy, ano gagawin mo?

Buhusan ng malamig na water.

3. Sinabi sayo ng bestfriend mo na buntis siya.

At sino naman ang ama?

4. Anong pwedeng mangyari para mapadali ang mga bagay para sa yo?

Inspiration. Money. and Money.

5. Kailan yung huling beses na may tao na gusto mong sapakin sa mukha?

A month ago siguro.

6. Anong huling bagay na pinagkagastusan mo?

Sleeveless tops sa Zara.

7. Sino ang pinakamagandang babae sa friends list mo?

Si Lyndsley. My HS friend and tropa. That's for realzzzz.

8. What is your ideal partner?

Christian.

11. If you had to sleep with one of

your teachers from college, who

would it be?

None. Kung meron man, wak nalang sabihin.

12. Meron ka bang itinatago sa mundo?

Yes!!!!!!

13. Congratulations! May anak na lalaki ka na! Anong ipapangalan mo?

Wala pa eh.

14. Anong pagkain ang hinahanaphanap ng sikmura mo ngayon?

Chicken balls ni Kuya Henry.
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15. Anong huling bagay na iniyakan mo?

Nang malaman kong tinahi ung kamay ni Ian. huhuhu..

16. Pag may binili ka at ang sinukli sayo ay 2 cents, itatago mo ba o sa kahera na lang?

Mine.. Akin un eh.

17. Naiisip mo ba kung paano na lang ang mundo kung wala ka?

Hindi. Never crossed in my mind.

18. kung reregaluhan ka ng bonggang bongga, anong gusto mong matanggap?

vivien tam hp laptop.

19. Tungkol saan naman yung huling voicemail na natanggap mo?

None. deact ang voicemail ko.

20. May na-block ka na ba sa friendster mo?

Meron 3.

21. Pinakanakakatindig-balahibong naranasan mo para sa araw na ito?

Nag-general cleaning ako ng haus.. :p

22. Nagsusuot ka ba ng name tag sa iyong opisina?

Dati.. Nope.

23. May minamahal ka ba sa kasalukuyan?

Oo...

25. Nag-garage sale na ba kayo?

Dati sa dorm.

26. Anong kulay ng cellphone mo??

Blek.

27. Anong huling serbesa ang tinoma mo?

Vodka Peach.

28. Kung maipagpapalit mo ang buhay mo sa kahit na sino, gagawin mo ba?

Pwede pero for 1 day lang.

Astroboy the Boy Robot

Astroboy the Movie. The robot boy is back. I can still remember when I used to watch this when I was a little younger. I really need to see this. Though I wasn't able to watch it regularly but the story of Astroboy that I know is only limited to how I see it in it's original series. Hope this comes out well.

THE 60's VERSION OF ASTROBOY | FIRST EPISODE

Buona Festa della Mamma

Yes, I'm totally aware that my greetings are 1-day late. Not intentionally, though. It's Monday again, start of this freaking week. Yesterday, we we're not able to celebrate for mother's day since it's linggo.. (in short sarado lahat ng negozi which makes this country super weird). We don't have any plans out celebrating this monday. Everyone seems so busy. Instead of eating outside and miggling with friends, Marc and I decided to help Mama with her part-time job. Parang simpleng regalo na rin yun namen sa kanya. It's a lot sweeter than giving anything material, right? After working for 2 hours, we decided to go to a nearby supermarket to buy anything na pwedeng kainin. While in the supermarket, I felt like I wanted to eat a lot of food. I have a huge cravings, and only God knows why. lol. When we got home, Marc prepared pesto and we hate heartly.

May 18, 1987. I shooooooould take note of that date!! Masyado akong makakalimutin sa mga dates and bdays ng mga friends ko. And now, I forgot when was Ian's bday. Buti nalang he's super bait he didn't get mad at me. It won't happen ever again, and I'm swearing it. Hohoh.

Mainit yata ang ulo. :p

Japan Welcomes Ate Angel

Ate Angel (Ian's oldest sister), was blessed to get a nursing job in Japan. They've been waiting for this time to come ever since God knows. :) I'm happy at the same time sad since she's leaving his family for a while which I know is totally hard. Kahit ako nung umalis, masakit sa aking loob. :] But God takes you to place which He knows is better. Bonvoyage Ate!

Woo. Japan has been one of the places I really wanted to conquer someday. Japan has been a busy country, from latest technology to delicious delicacies, a total wow. One I get the chance, nobody can stop me. Even the dreadul swine influenza. Hoho. The reasons? Ito:

Food. Food. Food. (I like Cali Maki the most)
Their National Costume. ( I haven't tried wearing one)

Discreet houses. (Their off shoe policy and low tabled styles)
iRobots. Latest Technology. (They've got the latest from the latest)

Your Ideals

Mood of the Day

50/50 Bored. I didn't do much.

This blog has been stocked with my personal rants, chismis and how's my day like updates. It makes me bored, somehow. And to make this blog entry a lil' significant I thought of posting other topics. Last night when I'm about to fall a sleep I'm thinking of my ideal man. No, I'm not searching. I've got the man I'll always wished for, in the person of by boyfriend. And I'm happy. A lot of people say, there isn't no ideal man.. just the real man. Ang sabi ko naman, parang nabasa ko lang yan sa text message/GM ng mga friends ko. Is there really an ideal man?

Way back in my highschool days (1st year, to be exact), I always ask my friends how is it to love and be loved. It wasn't a big search for me that time. I used to have crushes on some of the hs boys and I know totally at that time, I'm not inlove. As far as I can remember, and mga type ko sa guy dati ay ang mga characteristics na hinahanap ko before I had by current bf. It changed a little, though almost are the same. Cute, Matangkad, Mayaman, Maputi, May kotse, Singkit, Palabiro, Hindi madaldal (ako lang dapat ang madaldal), masipag, responsible, God fearing and has respect for his/my family. Hndi lahat ng naging bf ko may mga characteristics na yan, almost pero hindi lahat.

After 22 years of existence, I haven't known much about life. Life has it's own twists and turns, nothing is certain. All I know in this idea of having an ideal man is when you finally accept a person ( his flaws and weaknesses) fully. You cannot love a person by just accepting half of what he/she is. When you love, you accept 100% whether you deny it or not. Sabi nga, walang perfect sa mundo. We are made from imperfections. But accepting and loving who we are makes us a person, struggling for the better makes us worthy. By the end of the day, your ideal person/guy/girl boils out to be the one you trully and fully love.

Breath Slow. Don't Lose Composure.

Me wants to share this beautiful song. I've been stuck in listening to mild music. Love it.


Can't forget to breathe slow | Count from one to ten | With my eyes closed
'cos ladies take it in | And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure | Before i lose it get comp- oh oh oh 'sure


One more thing, I've got no absences this week yet. I'm so good. Bigyan nyo ako ng masigabong palakpakan. Siet, ambait ko. :)

This Week. This is Me.

I'm doing good. I mean, super good. I started my week right. Sabi nga ng mga matatanda, dpat good girl ka sa monday so that it will last through out the week. So far, i'm doing fine. I'm in normal phase. Nag-aaral na ako ng mabuti ngayon. Though, it's really hard, i know kaya ko. Ako pa!

The cold wind is gradually fading. Summer will soon get into the way. Ayokong isipin na magiging super init dito. Hindi ko matake. Di ko kayang imagine. :p Anyhow, I've never been in situation na nasa extreme heat ako. Ayoko magcollapse dahil sa heat stroke. Bata pa ako.

Ian and I with the help of Skype. After quite sometime, we talked. I'm happy. I'm always happy with him. Inlove pa rin ako. Super... :p

Sunglasses. Since the suns lasts until 8-9pm here. I should wear shades. Kahit pango ako, kaya naman. I've got all the guts. So, la ako paki. I bought this for 5 euro sa Papiniano. Kewl though.

Taken: after church. bongga. :p

Lazy Sunday

I hate lazy sundays. No work. No play. All sleep and eat. Life that every bastards dreams of. But not me. I realized I haven't visited rakista for a long time. Here I am updating my blog. Gusto ko lang ipost ang mga sumusunod:

Congrats Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao!
Naloka ako ng bongang-bonga sa isa sa pinaka walang katense tense na laban. I feel so happy, pero hindi ko idol si pacman ah, happy lang ako.

On the other hand, i received a text message from the Phils. Here it goes:

"Hindi lahat ng natutulog nasa kama" - Ricky Hatton

It really makes my day. Hay!