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Good thing, the week is over. it has been a long week for me( a really long week!). Yesterday, I went home late. That's why my boyfriend got really worried. Our boss from Turkey invited us for dinner in Capishe, Metrowalk. It is a fine dining resto, and we had a good freakin' time. Bonding with the office mates with cool music. The food was really good. I have a big appetite for Italian cuisine and I can't get enough of it. In short say, my whole everyday reduction program has been turned 180 degrees.
I fixin' a lot of things lately. I have a tight sked for the next 2 weeks and I don't know where to start. I've been praying that God would grant my request to be with my family. It's been a long time since we've been together. I can still remember last year, my dad was fixin' a lot of documents. And now I'm doing the same thing. And I thank God for those people who support me all the way, Mama Jo and the gang.

The week is almost over, it has gone so fast. I wish I was able to more productive, like a did before. Later tonight, I'm gonna fix my things up. Need to get ready, we'll move to another place. I believe it's a nicer place, i hope so. I am so fed up by the cockroach threats and humid fish-like smell in my old boarding house. I is really annoying. I hope we found a nicer place. :]

I just got from my weekend vacation in cavite (at my tita's house). I stayed there for two days, such a relief from the stressful and toxic city life. When having my vacation, Ian was out for an outing. He along with his highschool fellas went on an adventure somewhere in Laguna (I forgot the exact place). It was kind of a nature trip, with falls, forest and everything. I wasn't able to go with him for I want him to enjoy a the whole outing without me. It's good sometimes, to give a little space. At home, I had a super-unlimited internet access. I was able to browse and surf until 2am. I was able to download and do my all-so-nasty internet routine. It was fine. Because I slept super late, I woke up early. I was awakened by my Tita's voice, she was talking that time with my brothers in Italy. It was such a good night sleep, cold scent of coffee flowers gave me enough relaxation and comfort. :]

I'm In Love

Yes, he keeps me falling in love over and over again. I love to be with him every single hour and day of my life. I'm enjoying the times that we share laughter and moments that i cannot afford to miss out. He is the guy I'm wishing to be with for the rest of my life. I know that I'm still young to say these words, yet, I'm pretty and quite sure that with him, my life could be even more beautiful.

I've known him for quite a long time. I met him 4 years ago, he is not even my close friend or someone I used to hanged out with. We are completely strangers by heart, yet still familiar knowing each other by names since we have the same group ministry and of the same school. All I know by then that he is the "good-ol-so-silent type of guy". We never engaged in small talk neither nor go out with group of friends, not at all. I can still remember that I had a crush on him, secretly.. :] Physically, he is my type.

When I first saw him, he is with somebody. Oh, yes, he is committed during those time. Yet, it really wasn't a big deal for me. I felt happiness for both of them, since, that somebody is also my friend. Whenever I see them together, all I can say is that, they are of perfect match. Until it came to my knowing that they broke up. When that news broke my ears, I didn't feel gladness or any positive thought. It is just that i was shocked knowing the news.

We became friends, very good friends. He knows that I like him and I also know that he feels the same way. In short, our feelings are mutual and it feels so right. We've been text mates at first, yes, this is the starting point as always. I showed him my true personality, I never pretend or do some "hey-i'm-such-a-cutie-patootie type of girl".. We are not constant text mates, since he is such a busy person. What thing I learned about him is that he is a family man, which I liked the most.

Everything's going good, until one rainy morning when I received a text from him. He invited me to have breakfast with him! He fetched me in my boarding house and we chow in cafeteria. That was just the first time we talked and exchanged thoughts. I wasn't comfortable by that time since that was my first time, yet it was the best. Until then, we became constant text mates and we always see each other more often. We became very close to each other until I feel that I really liked him.

December 02, 2007, 8:30pm, that's the official time and date that we started and decided to continue on the first step of our relationship. I never regret that we became close and now even closer. He has thought me everything, things that made me a better me.

I love him. He loves me. And that's the most important thing.

2008. Yes, and after 3 months and 30 days finally I just got in... Blog Updating!

Just to give you some heads-up of what's in and out (literally..), persons got in and out of my life.

Others are expected most are unexpected, but yet, i was able to cope up.

I can say that I'm all productive this time, challenging job, great relationship and nice friends. It's Jam Packed! And I'm so lucky enough that it is turning out in the way that I wanted, more than I really expected. :]

The day is quite boring... I woke up late 10am, ate my breakfast right away and do the internet hopping. :] I don't really know why i get so much pleasure from this non sense thing. But whatever that is, I'm enjoying it. And that really matters. Agree? I'm graving for chocolates! Geezzz, yesterday i bought 4 kinds of chocolate bars!! I'm an addict, i know. :] harhar... I hope i won't get fat. Hindi un bagay sa akin! :] Scary thing! Christmas is coming to it's existence, and I can't feel it! Too bad, I'm spending it without my family. I'm a family bonded buddy, I admit it. Well, I guess I really have to enjoy my Christmas alone, with just my relatives. Thank God for my Mama Jo and company. :] Apir!

Heaven is Here

Gawd! My CCN Training is almost over. Need to finish 1 more exam, finale! :] Wahaha.. I'm thinking of my next plan, hmmm, need to find a job, i need to earn money now! it's about time i think. I got my license, my PRC certificates by December 20 and Training certificate... I uber inspired this past few days. I so happy. :]

December 2 is the date. Very significant. It's the day I finally entrusted my heart, again. I love him, and i mean it. :] I'm so much in love. We jive together, and I think that's pretty important. I trust him and he trusts me. What more can I ask for. May the good Lord bless us. :]

Call it us. :]
Christian Tabora + Jemielyn Camitan

Gawd! I'm been so damn busy. I've been fixin my xanga, multiply, fs and ms accounts! my CCN training is almost over, got 1 month more then need to have a job.. :] yihee, need to earn money, life is difficult nowadays. agree? I'm planning to have a job exprience in the same hospital,so i don't need to make major adjustments. Crappy, all familiar!

My move just arrived. And I'm glad my family is whole again. :] We hang out and eat together. How sweet! This November 17, my mom along with my bros and dad will be leaving to Italy. Awtz.. Need to learn how to be independent. I know I can! Ako pa! :]

Absent ako ngayon. :} And so?! Nothing! I feel like being absent. As of now, got 2 absents na... :] But it's no big deal, really.

Right now, I'm contemplating on my life. I know, this is not normal for me. I usually go out on my own, with my friends and hell, i don't even care on what other people say about me. It's their opinion, and i believe that it is none of my business. During the course of my life, i realized that happiness and contentment goes along. Just like what other people say, "Just enjoy what you are doing, and all the rest follows". But what if your happy with what you are doing but the truth is your on the wrong track?! Would you still hold on to what makes you smile? Would you numb yourself from the fact that your dumb stupid? Stupid just for the sake of being happy?! It is like staying out in the rain, it feels so good, but defenitely it will make you sick. Right now, I'm thinking of having a decision. It kills me.

NURSING BOARDS EXAM RESULTS out! :3 and i passed! YAHOO! :3 i owe this to God. grabe, answered prayer talaga ito. the exam was harder than expected, but 70% of mamc-avant garde made it. i'm so damn proud of my alma mater. i don't conmsider this as "chamba".. we deserve it, i know, seriously! compared with other schools, mamc got a very nice rate standing... :3 yahoo.. for sure, naloloka na ang college of nursing sa mamc. hay! :3 after the long wait, the results went out just right. and i'm so thankful that most of us passed! see you guys on october 2! oathtaking, that is! my gala uniform is not yet fixed, goodness!! but i'm super duper excited! advance happy birthday gift for me! but of course, there were some people who didn't make it. and it hurts because some people are close to us.. :'8 i know how they are feeling right now, naganticipatory grieving na ata ako before!... but hey! i believe that God has a major plan for everyone.. :] more than what you expected to be, right? so let's count the blessings!
plans plans? well, i'm busy working on my student visa to italy. now that i made it in local boards, i'm planning to have my masteral degree in italy. master of arts in nursing! :3 i hope it's God's will! :3 bless me..

Heroes day today :3 make the most of it. i have my work later, aha! double pay, it is! :3 i miss my college friends aka dhung and dhays! :[ i miss our hang outs and fun moments. hay! grabe, gusto ko na sila makita ulit :3 heniweiz, i think i'm a freak! i almost slept 14 hours! bangag na nga ata ako.. but it feels good.. super well rested! :] much work to do later. when i woke up, nabasa ko ang text sa akin ni Raymond Dhung.. "Dhay, alam ko masyado kang busy. Magpahinga ka naman.". Well, sobrang natouch ako sa text nia.. and i realized that i should rest too. hehe :3 namiss ko tuloy ang mga kaibigan ko. anyhow, i know we'll be seeing each other again. can't wait to see them! :3

happy moments! :3

ciao everyone! :] got a long day sleep... this week is kinda weird for me. i'm livin' like a vampire! and i love it.. i've been so damn busy and i find it hard to get some time with my self. go shopping, pampering myself, it sucks. really! but when monetary stuff enters in, that's different. i was like counting days before the next salary will be. and that motivates me.. that is what you call "money hunger"... it's like i'm living independently now. i'm spending my own money. i need to budget everything, as in, budget my daily allowances up to my "vices" and "vanity stuffs"... and i'm working on it.. i hope i'm doing it right.. :] Bless me.. :]
i'm working on my Italian visa application. i really gotta go with my mom! :] more money, more opportunity and experience. that's why i'm graving for it. it is a student visa. so i don't have to worry much of the requirements! everything will be my mom's responsibility.. :] i'm so damn excited... yeahyeah! :]

foto chits! coming...

holla! sunday, it is! jem is so damn happy! the 10-day foundation training is now over. and the whole 3-10 pioneeers made it. we all passed! yahoo! :] and so, we can proceed to the much harder step, an extremely complicated phase, [tadah] product training! we will be moving to the other building. next to taipan, the PT will be in Prestige Pent House.. :] and i need more powers this time! i can do it!our sked was also changed! it will be 10pm to 7am this coming week. hell right? hope it'll be fun.. hope so :]

heniweiz, the tension in nursing board exams is rising! results will be out by august 15 or 17, according to hearsays. :[ very scary though.the eaxm was twice harder than expected. i did my best during the exam, and i know that whatever the results will be, God still has this great plan in stored for me. So, God's will be done.

later tonight, we'll be hitting trinoma :] been there for 3xs already. the place was like the typical ayala malls. very nice! :] i'm planning to buy something.. eniweiz, mom gave us extra budget for shopping purposes :]

olrytie, it's saturday people! It's so damn boring, really!:] the week that had past was described as the "turtle week", and i just don't know why.. :] im so damn busy with my foundation training... well, training is fun, but not quite. it's like we were doing activities for 8 hours and other funny stuffs. far from my expectations. hope i'll pass the FT for me to proceed to the next step. anyhow, about the people in my class, i find them great and friendly. :] i never had a hard time dealing with these people even they are 2 to 3 years older than i am. hehe.
okay okay okay, moving along, i heard that august 15 will be the judgement day! :] the releasing of the 2007 june nursing boards results! and AMOF there were only 40 thousand examinees passed the exam. almost half of the examinees failed. and that's awful! :[ very frightening! early this morning i texted my friends about this, and they were like scared just like me! well, i know God was with me that time when i was answering the whole exam thing! that's why i need to be confident. just continue praing for me guys! :] oryt?
so, i need to end up my journal now. till' next time! ciao! :]

Sunday is my day.. Aww.. I'm missing 2 special people in my life, but hey! i'm not gloomy today.. :] okay, my day is better than before, i woke up at 7:30 in the morning. i got 7 hours of sleep,hmm,sufficient indeed!! :], had my full breakfast and tadah.. may personal vice, The Internet Hopping!! last night i was supposed to enter a post in my dashboard. but! but! somebody got my fuckin' attention.. the poser, the copycat and the insecure girl. i don't really know her personally, but she got the hell out of me! PAINTBOX.COM? ADOBEPHOTOSHOP DESKTOP SCREENSHOT WITH PICTURES EKLAVOO? watthefuck! :] Stolen ideas, kawawang nilalang, such a nutshell, [toktoktok].. hope she's get tired of it eventually.. anyhow, the "Eyes of Magdalene" Group is out! nah.. big thanks to Mac who gave the group it's voluptuous name! mac is really a real and cool friends of mine. i love this girl a lot... bakal ito, pareho kami.. hehe.. kidding aside she's really admirable!! :]

howdy?$#@ i'm hella super duper emotional today!! and i'm hating it... it's a killer. i mean, he's not really mine. but why am i acting like his gf?? wtf di ba? teh fact that we are not commited i think it's wrong to feel this way. we only see each other twice or even once a week...he's so damn busy with his student life! and it cracks me. really!! in a very wrong way... it sucks!!!
anyhow, i'll be starting my call center job next week.. hey! i'm employed! rejoice people.. :] hehe.. and alast i'll be very busy, no time to be uber emotional... xet xet xet!! :]
wish me luck guys.. thanks for droppin' by :]

Different connotations. It's quite frustrating having to watch what you say because every other word has different connotations. Homonyms frustrate me as well. Yes, these are the words that sound the same but have totally different meanings. We should all walk around with a monitor on our chest to caption every single thing we say. While we're at it, we should have a disclaimer ready in case someone misunderstands our intended rhetoric. Or maybe I should have a sign on me at all times that says, "Not really meant for you." There are times when I write on a topic that may be out of character. Usually, when I do, I write from a neutral person's perspective. Just because I haven't experienced that specific event doesn't mean that I haven't been around those that have and seen the damage. I don't want to have to censor every entry I write because someone might feel insulted. If you feel like my post is directed towards you, it's probably because you're guilty. You should be.

PSALM 27 : 11-12 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies. Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty. Whom shall I fear? I have so much respect for those who seem like they have every right to be angry at God yet continue to worship him. I heard a minister read this verse at the hospital during my shift the other day. I couldn't help but smile.

With all the recent discoveries of my post-adolescent years standing on the pre-adult plateau, I needed something like that to slap me back into reality. I really shouldn't even take anything to heart because there are those who will continue to "breathe out cruelty" on me. All I can do is take it in stride and give it to Him. It's up to Him as to what the repercussions will be in the long run.

I've always been one to take criticism to heart. I'm so quick to give it, but when it comes back to me, I crawl up into a ball and question myself. Once I've had enough time to do so, that's when I fight back. Re-energized, I'll attack with so much vengeance and resentment, which just makes the situation even worse because all the issues come out at once -- no holds barred. Attacking without much thought.

I can't please everyone. It's such a difficult task to do. All I can do is live life in accordance to how I think it should be lived. Someone always tells me, "You know the difference between right and wrong." I do. It's just difficult when there are those who try to take me down and succeed in doing so by "breaking the rules." It makes me frustrated that they've done something to me while breaking the rules and continue to get away with it. That's when I realized that it's not up to me to judge and punish their acts. It's up to Him. All I can do is believe, toughen up, and take whatever is thrown my way.

I continue to struggle on a daily basis though because of the trials that I've had to go through dealing with forgiveness and learning to overlook hurtful words and actions directed towards me. Slowly, but surely, I've learned to accept things the way they've been dealt to me. With a few cliches learned, nothing is ever quite as it seems, it's easier to forgive than forget, sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me, I'm just living life and learning more each day.

okey okey okey, at last, i made my latest post. aha!! :] well, things are happening fine for me now.. [haha, unlike before], i will be starting my job this 23th and i'm not that excited... why??? i just don't know. i was excited before but things are different now. i mean, i realized that this is life, take it more serious baby!! i miss schooling, really!! :[ i wanted to kick back to school. i missed the old faces there, the cramming moments and the problematic days. i just wish i could go back to those days.. :] anyhow, life is like that!! just face okey?? this is not a blog-worthy post, well, anyway, nothing!!! :] have a happy fuckin' day!!

this is not something i consider blog-worthy... oh well..

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for a second there i sort of wished it was you.. it wasn't. but life goes on.. i'll keep on walking until something, someone, or some weird phenomenon makes me stop for a while..

"but why am i the only one standing stranded on the same ground?" -Kitchie Nadal

i'm not happy.. and i how happiness finds me. i'm dying.. [huhuh] i'm such a stupid ass, i'm good i know but why do i feel this way.. i feel like i'm a mess.. crap!!