Sunday is my day.. Aww.. I'm missing 2 special people in my life, but hey! i'm not gloomy today.. :] okay, my day is better than before, i woke up at 7:30 in the morning. i got 7 hours of sleep,hmm,sufficient indeed!! :], had my full breakfast and tadah.. may personal vice, The Internet Hopping!! last night i was supposed to enter a post in my dashboard. but! but! somebody got my fuckin' attention.. the poser, the copycat and the insecure girl. i don't really know her personally, but she got the hell out of me! PAINTBOX.COM? ADOBEPHOTOSHOP DESKTOP SCREENSHOT WITH PICTURES EKLAVOO? watthefuck! :] Stolen ideas, kawawang nilalang, such a nutshell, [toktoktok].. hope she's get tired of it eventually.. anyhow, the "Eyes of Magdalene" Group is out! nah.. big thanks to Mac who gave the group it's voluptuous name! mac is really a real and cool friends of mine. i love this girl a lot... bakal ito, pareho kami.. hehe.. kidding aside she's really admirable!! :]

howdy?$#@ i'm hella super duper emotional today!! and i'm hating it... it's a killer. i mean, he's not really mine. but why am i acting like his gf?? wtf di ba? teh fact that we are not commited i think it's wrong to feel this way. we only see each other twice or even once a week...he's so damn busy with his student life! and it cracks me. really!! in a very wrong way... it sucks!!!
anyhow, i'll be starting my call center job next week.. hey! i'm employed! rejoice people.. :] hehe.. and alast i'll be very busy, no time to be uber emotional... xet xet xet!! :]
wish me luck guys.. thanks for droppin' by :]

Different connotations. It's quite frustrating having to watch what you say because every other word has different connotations. Homonyms frustrate me as well. Yes, these are the words that sound the same but have totally different meanings. We should all walk around with a monitor on our chest to caption every single thing we say. While we're at it, we should have a disclaimer ready in case someone misunderstands our intended rhetoric. Or maybe I should have a sign on me at all times that says, "Not really meant for you." There are times when I write on a topic that may be out of character. Usually, when I do, I write from a neutral person's perspective. Just because I haven't experienced that specific event doesn't mean that I haven't been around those that have and seen the damage. I don't want to have to censor every entry I write because someone might feel insulted. If you feel like my post is directed towards you, it's probably because you're guilty. You should be.

PSALM 27 : 11-12 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies. Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty. Whom shall I fear? I have so much respect for those who seem like they have every right to be angry at God yet continue to worship him. I heard a minister read this verse at the hospital during my shift the other day. I couldn't help but smile.

With all the recent discoveries of my post-adolescent years standing on the pre-adult plateau, I needed something like that to slap me back into reality. I really shouldn't even take anything to heart because there are those who will continue to "breathe out cruelty" on me. All I can do is take it in stride and give it to Him. It's up to Him as to what the repercussions will be in the long run.

I've always been one to take criticism to heart. I'm so quick to give it, but when it comes back to me, I crawl up into a ball and question myself. Once I've had enough time to do so, that's when I fight back. Re-energized, I'll attack with so much vengeance and resentment, which just makes the situation even worse because all the issues come out at once -- no holds barred. Attacking without much thought.

I can't please everyone. It's such a difficult task to do. All I can do is live life in accordance to how I think it should be lived. Someone always tells me, "You know the difference between right and wrong." I do. It's just difficult when there are those who try to take me down and succeed in doing so by "breaking the rules." It makes me frustrated that they've done something to me while breaking the rules and continue to get away with it. That's when I realized that it's not up to me to judge and punish their acts. It's up to Him. All I can do is believe, toughen up, and take whatever is thrown my way.

I continue to struggle on a daily basis though because of the trials that I've had to go through dealing with forgiveness and learning to overlook hurtful words and actions directed towards me. Slowly, but surely, I've learned to accept things the way they've been dealt to me. With a few cliches learned, nothing is ever quite as it seems, it's easier to forgive than forget, sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me, I'm just living life and learning more each day.

okey okey okey, at last, i made my latest post. aha!! :] well, things are happening fine for me now.. [haha, unlike before], i will be starting my job this 23th and i'm not that excited... why??? i just don't know. i was excited before but things are different now. i mean, i realized that this is life, take it more serious baby!! i miss schooling, really!! :[ i wanted to kick back to school. i missed the old faces there, the cramming moments and the problematic days. i just wish i could go back to those days.. :] anyhow, life is like that!! just face okey?? this is not a blog-worthy post, well, anyway, nothing!!! :] have a happy fuckin' day!!

this is not something i consider blog-worthy... oh well..

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for a second there i sort of wished it was you.. it wasn't. but life goes on.. i'll keep on walking until something, someone, or some weird phenomenon makes me stop for a while..

"but why am i the only one standing stranded on the same ground?" -Kitchie Nadal

i'm not happy.. and i how happiness finds me. i'm dying.. [huhuh] i'm such a stupid ass, i'm good i know but why do i feel this way.. i feel like i'm a mess.. crap!!

i'm feelin' bad lately, i don't know why.. [weird eh?] it's like a depressive syndrome or whatever... maybe it is just a result of a typical hormonal balance happening in women... i'm busy digging my forums & thank God, i'm starting to get over something... ngayon pa lang, nakikinita ko na na after the board exam, i will be very busy surfing the net... well, nothing much to say.. i'm just updating this damn blog.. thanks for reading this anyway.. ciao!!
camwhoring is ON:

i believe that in loving someone, it just end up in 2 ways, the happy and the sad endings. hard to say, some love relationship just end up nothing. after a long time of laughters and fun, ups and downs, relationships fall and the bad thing about it is that, is hard to rebuild it again.
it's hard to severed the heart who cares for you a lot for the heart might soon get tired and can't endure it no more! yes, it's true that a true heart can withstand any obstacles and can go on even if it hurts. but when the heart gets tired and realizes that the one it cares for doesn't even care about it all... it might lose its feelings and change it's resolve!

weee, out of the great boredom, i've made a simple wallpaper. haha, it was my 2nd time to make like this. [to check it out, try to visit my dA]...

*mwua*

lemme see, it's election day tomorrow, and since i'm not a registered voter [i'm such a kiskass ohh my!], i can't practice my right to vote. but, let's just assume okey? i'm planning to vote for [only] 3 senators whom i really admire:

first, Loren Legarda, an opposition, such a great and smart woman. she knows to fight for what she think is right. and in the first place, gogogogo girl power!
second, Joker Arroyo, the poeple's dragon, that's what they call him. i'am really amazed by the laws he had proclamed and everything. really a great and awesome leader.
and lastly third, Trillanes, he was imprisoned because of rebellion, but still i believe that he has something and a potential to become a good leader.
i won't vote for anything else. hehe, but sorry for these guys, they will miss a vote from me. wahaha!!! let's just hope that tomorrow's election will be peaceful.. Godbless our country. hey! i'm proud to be pinay!! yahooooo.. :]

gracious! it's mother's day tomoro.. and whew, can't great my mom personally. how sad.
the day after tonight, is gonna be big! wahaha, i mean big, in a sense that i really have to make a big move!! need to rush on studying for the local boards. it's such a stress, but G i'm so excited! i miss my studying habits when i was still in my lower college years, were in waking up 3am and browsing, memorizing notes is such a habit.
well, now, i'm missing someone. and gosh, i miss him a lot. i just don't know why and how but i do. special feelings are still there and it can't be taken away so easily. and i hope he misses me too, just as i do. [huhuhu..]

til' next time dudes.

well, i thank God! i'm almost finish with my requirements and in a short while i'll be goin' to apply.. geezzz, this is it! here the board exam goes... and so we have to make it... so God bless us! <3

let me see.. hmmmkay, yeah and my whole groovy family got that cool swimming escape. we really had fun, eventhough we just stayed there for about 3hours. [haha].. it was like i was relieved of everything, the stress and all that, burdens and stuffs.. the board exams is a great stressor, and if u can't carry the feeling, it will screw you to death. i mean, i wasn't ready yet to take the board exam. it was like i'm very busy all this time rushing through my requirements. sick! and so my mom told me that i should decide whether i would take it or not. all the decision is up to me... [hehe] and now i'm thinking if i would continue with it... im glad i have supportive family, very understanding. thank God! and i dunno yet what to do.. so i'm asking God to enlighten me. that's all.. till' next time!! ciao ciao! <3>ured moments.VILLA FELICIDAD, is great!

it's me again. i woke up at 6:15 in the morning. geezzz and i feel relieved. i was like dying the whole day yesterday. my migraine is killing me, and i hate it. my mom told me to wear my eyeglasses,because she thinks that my headache is because of my eyes, but hey, it sucks. i feel like i'm uber ugly and weird.. and so i decided not to use it. [hehe].. yesterday, we went to novaliches and the fuckin' heat of manila killed us. it was like we are travellin' through the desert island. nakakamatay!! i wasn't able to attend the revu for about 3days. but i promise to "make bawi" of everything. i'm going to finish half of volume 1.. hehe.. i'm at the 1/4 of the book... go jem!
tomoro i'll be heading back to manila... please pray for me! see yah! <3

whoa! i can't believe i'm still alive! life after graduation is two times crappy [and sometimes 10 times]... requirements requirements requirements! damn, i need to accomplish everything before it's too late! [haha]... i'm rushing so that i can apply for the local boards' application. and how i wish i could carry everything well... seriously speaking i'm not yet ready to have the board exam. as a matter of fact, all this time, my life is occupied with completions of OB scrubs. [huhuhu]... well, im thankful that i had my OR operations done, that offers a lil' relief [whoooo..] i still thank God for the strength His' giving me. i'm still surviving. my plans are now laid in God's hands... yesterday, my tita gave me her late graduation gift! and i'm so happy that she gave me this "lucky pig" haha... they believe that this will bring good luck, and i can't believe that i'm hoping that this gift will bring me something! funny isn't it? heheh... ________________________________________
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yeah, i moved into a new house and i'm glad i'm no longer stucked in that old dormitory building. for my first week, it's kind of an adjustment but i am content. hehe! i enjoy the company of my magugulong housemates. it's like we're watching tv ol d tym and cracking the house by singing videoke. fun fun fun, making sure that i'm occupied at all tyms. yeah, getting busy enough to forget the aches of life. and i'm glad i'm really doing great! i hope for better improvement this week.. and that's my prayer! week pasted so slowly, i don't know why, but it really does for me. it's like the clock ticks 3seconds per second! awww... sobrang nakakapago0d din and week, we have to prepare costumes for Pilipinana, retro, casual and formal seminars.. and that sucks! but i enjoy a 'lil.
today, im planning to go back to pasay.. and we'll be having the last ever comprehensive examination! damn! need to study... so far, i haven't studied even a topic. goodluck to me!! ciao!

we'll be having our last batch retreat. and yes, it will be in Baguio! yebah.. that will be my first tym on that place. so it's such an accomplishment for me. [hehe].. im so excited. but of corz, along with that excitement... i know i'll be missing important people. imagine, we will be out for 4 days! and that is almost a week.. quite long huh..' our theory lectures and duty requirements are over. moreover, we will have a hard tym studying for our local board exam. and watdah, i'm so nervous! [~.~] hehe. very nervous! but yeh, im planning to do my very best to be one of the local nursing board's top 10. wat a dream ayt? lmao.. harhar! this thursday, we will defend our nursing research, thesis, in short.. quite stressful for me, coz i need to edit everything and study every detail. damn, it's so hard being a leader. . whrooor!! say goodlak to d goddess! "charing"

so long.. kisses!

hello!!!
another day! hay! last nyt i'm so busy burning cds! well, what's the point? nothing.. it's just a release of stress and watsoever emotions. teh fact that i'm rushing to grad requirements, i still have this bashing time for my own personal interests. music and photography! but of cors i promise to fill my requirements on time.. but now isn't the ryt time.. maybe next week will do. lmao!! this 3pm i'll be having my duty "agen".. and who the hell in this world is as unfortunate as we are, my gudness, our CI this week is as toxic as ever.. i think this week will be a hell week for us.. pugay kinamay tlga!! pagnganamansinuswetee!!! well, pls pray for our block.. amen ..
this february, we'll be having our intramurals.. and damn i'm so effin' excited.. graooahhh!! my friends and i are goin' to prepare a cheering "kuno".. that i think this will be our last.. so give enaf patience folkz.. yupyup! <3 practice will start this wednesday i think... wehahaha!! i'm so excited.. stress release.. hehe..

maderpaker! all the while i thought every things gonna be alryt, but i was damn wrong.. i started to feel that he's goin' so far that i could even feel that he cares for me... i believe that i've done a lot of mistakes, but do you think it deserves me ryt? when i look back on tyms wen were 2geter, i'm squeezing out every detail that maybe i've done a wrong turn "agen".. but i couldn't think of any! dats why i have a lot of questionings... and it hurts a lot.. realizing that i didn't even take a shit out of somewhere or some one.. my friends told me that maybe he realized that i wasn't the one for him.. and it's time to move on. well, easy to say, hard to do.. i'm not that type that letting go is just like throwing a candy wrapper in a trash can.. it's not easy.. and now im drowning from insecurities causing me to fall back...
i'm starting to get used to it.. im getting tired.. :(

few hours from now, i'll be heading back to pasay... damn! the whole xmas and new year vacation is so "bitin". it sucks! scholling agen and agen and agen... wel, im a graduating stud, so expect me to be uber busy w/ fuckin' requirements, finals and everything.. and that will make my 2007 so TOXIC. I started fixin' my things from undergarments to unifroms... including my "kikay" stuffs and everything..and now i'm having my last internet hopping.. weee.. i did some photo manips and blogging... wahahahaha... i'll miss the times that i spend almost 8 hours in front of the computer doin' nothing.. just "kalandian"... and above all i'll miss my cheap photoshoots... wel, stil im enjoying that stupid thing. after i graduate and have some job, my first salary will be reserved for buying a "high-tech" cam... as a matter of fact, my dream camera is worth 65thousand pesos only *choked*.. and how i wish i can buy that.. hehe.. Godbless me.. it's my passion.. lallalalala.. i miss my blockmates and all my churvah tropapipz.. *sighs* happy moments w/ them.. <3
*hearts*