whoa! i can't believe i'm still alive! life after graduation is two times crappy [and sometimes 10 times]... requirements requirements requirements! damn, i need to accomplish everything before it's too late! [haha]... i'm rushing so that i can apply for the local boards' application. and how i wish i could carry everything well... seriously speaking i'm not yet ready to have the board exam. as a matter of fact, all this time, my life is occupied with completions of OB scrubs. [huhuhu]... well, im thankful that i had my OR operations done, that offers a lil' relief [whoooo..] i still thank God for the strength His' giving me. i'm still surviving. my plans are now laid in God's hands... yesterday, my tita gave me her late graduation gift! and i'm so happy that she gave me this "lucky pig" haha... they believe that this will bring good luck, and i can't believe that i'm hoping that this gift will bring me something! funny isn't it? heheh... ________________________________________
some captured moments [share...]

yeah, i moved into a new house and i'm glad i'm no longer stucked in that old dormitory building. for my first week, it's kind of an adjustment but i am content. hehe! i enjoy the company of my magugulong housemates. it's like we're watching tv ol d tym and cracking the house by singing videoke. fun fun fun, making sure that i'm occupied at all tyms. yeah, getting busy enough to forget the aches of life. and i'm glad i'm really doing great! i hope for better improvement this week.. and that's my prayer! week pasted so slowly, i don't know why, but it really does for me. it's like the clock ticks 3seconds per second! awww... sobrang nakakapago0d din and week, we have to prepare costumes for Pilipinana, retro, casual and formal seminars.. and that sucks! but i enjoy a 'lil.
today, im planning to go back to pasay.. and we'll be having the last ever comprehensive examination! damn! need to study... so far, i haven't studied even a topic. goodluck to me!! ciao!

we'll be having our last batch retreat. and yes, it will be in Baguio! yebah.. that will be my first tym on that place. so it's such an accomplishment for me. [hehe].. im so excited. but of corz, along with that excitement... i know i'll be missing important people. imagine, we will be out for 4 days! and that is almost a week.. quite long huh..' our theory lectures and duty requirements are over. moreover, we will have a hard tym studying for our local board exam. and watdah, i'm so nervous! [~.~] hehe. very nervous! but yeh, im planning to do my very best to be one of the local nursing board's top 10. wat a dream ayt? lmao.. harhar! this thursday, we will defend our nursing research, thesis, in short.. quite stressful for me, coz i need to edit everything and study every detail. damn, it's so hard being a leader. . whrooor!! say goodlak to d goddess! "charing"

so long.. kisses!

hello!!!
another day! hay! last nyt i'm so busy burning cds! well, what's the point? nothing.. it's just a release of stress and watsoever emotions. teh fact that i'm rushing to grad requirements, i still have this bashing time for my own personal interests. music and photography! but of cors i promise to fill my requirements on time.. but now isn't the ryt time.. maybe next week will do. lmao!! this 3pm i'll be having my duty "agen".. and who the hell in this world is as unfortunate as we are, my gudness, our CI this week is as toxic as ever.. i think this week will be a hell week for us.. pugay kinamay tlga!! pagnganamansinuswetee!!! well, pls pray for our block.. amen ..
this february, we'll be having our intramurals.. and damn i'm so effin' excited.. graooahhh!! my friends and i are goin' to prepare a cheering "kuno".. that i think this will be our last.. so give enaf patience folkz.. yupyup! <3 practice will start this wednesday i think... wehahaha!! i'm so excited.. stress release.. hehe..

maderpaker! all the while i thought every things gonna be alryt, but i was damn wrong.. i started to feel that he's goin' so far that i could even feel that he cares for me... i believe that i've done a lot of mistakes, but do you think it deserves me ryt? when i look back on tyms wen were 2geter, i'm squeezing out every detail that maybe i've done a wrong turn "agen".. but i couldn't think of any! dats why i have a lot of questionings... and it hurts a lot.. realizing that i didn't even take a shit out of somewhere or some one.. my friends told me that maybe he realized that i wasn't the one for him.. and it's time to move on. well, easy to say, hard to do.. i'm not that type that letting go is just like throwing a candy wrapper in a trash can.. it's not easy.. and now im drowning from insecurities causing me to fall back...
i'm starting to get used to it.. im getting tired.. :(

few hours from now, i'll be heading back to pasay... damn! the whole xmas and new year vacation is so "bitin". it sucks! scholling agen and agen and agen... wel, im a graduating stud, so expect me to be uber busy w/ fuckin' requirements, finals and everything.. and that will make my 2007 so TOXIC. I started fixin' my things from undergarments to unifroms... including my "kikay" stuffs and everything..and now i'm having my last internet hopping.. weee.. i did some photo manips and blogging... wahahahaha... i'll miss the times that i spend almost 8 hours in front of the computer doin' nothing.. just "kalandian"... and above all i'll miss my cheap photoshoots... wel, stil im enjoying that stupid thing. after i graduate and have some job, my first salary will be reserved for buying a "high-tech" cam... as a matter of fact, my dream camera is worth 65thousand pesos only *choked*.. and how i wish i can buy that.. hehe.. Godbless me.. it's my passion.. lallalalala.. i miss my blockmates and all my churvah tropapipz.. *sighs* happy moments w/ them.. <3
*hearts*

haller.. hours nalang it's 2007 nah.. [excited,huh?].. well,i'm uber full. i ate almost 6 sticks of hotdogs.. [haha..].. my tummy is bigger than before.. watatah!! well, im planning to go back to pasay tomoro or maybe the next day. hay.. dameng mga gagawin.. whuuuhhh!#$%&
angela came over [op cors w/ my tita] she's hella cute.. but a lil' bit shy. she's a camera lover, hehe, like her cousin , ehemmmmm... pictures:

^innocence^
^angela and jem^

new layout

"HEARTBREAKER"

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advance happy new year to us!! 2007 is coming.. and let's ol party! yabah!! *hehehe* and so, my new years resolutions are still processing.. i hope this time magiging makatotohanan na sya.. hehe!!! graveh, antalaw ko today! cguro every hour kumakaen ako... i dunno why.. pero gnun tlga cguro pag-inlab.. weee!! and maybe it's because i have this inspiration to eat and eat and eat... staying in the house for almost a week is eber boring. teh cold wind in my bedroom plus teh cold stiffining music of the dresden dolls kills me to death.. hehe.. btw, i enjoy their "gothic" music.. some sort of relaxation to my ears.. like a tralala... aside from the dresden dolls i accidentally downloaded a musical from Lacuna Coil.. it's quite fine.. very stylish sleek type of musicale.. tomoro, i'm planning to register for the next election.. goshie im 20 now and i need to VOTE.. weee its my right, ayt? bye for now... ciao!! kisses!^look!! headband, teh best baby!!^

LET'S MAKE LOVE

it's cold outside... weeee.. i like the weather!!! *giggles* my stomach is not feeling well.. geezzz.. i'm havin***... hahah.. very funny! i almost ate half a bottle of cheeze spread... [hihi]... pinapak ko lng... how weird isn't it.. enjoy nmn.. goody!

ambilis ng araw ngayon.. graveh.. d ko namalayan. siguro masya lang ako today.. hehe.. yipey!* becaUSE of my g**damn happiness i cleaned my room.. make some arrangements and changed the linens as well as the curtains... whoooaaalaaahh.. brand new room.. happy sleeping later.. <3 style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">bagong buhay!! vavooooommm!!

whayyyyy!! at last!! e2 na aking latest posting dito. and SHIEEETTT!!! [allow me to use that nasty expresyon!]... im uber happy this time! and don't ask why! i'm overwhelmed.. dat's ol...
[bow]
well, i'm dreaming of having a short hair.. and yes! [this is it]... eto ' na cia... super short hair! damn im lovin' it.. and i don't hella care for other's sarcastic comments.. as long as i'm enjoying it.. everything doesn't matter [intiendes].. i feel a lil' lighter.. watever!!! and here's the details:
dECEMBER 24,2006, David's Salon, SM Dasmarinas, 3:30pm
hahaha [very funny]
classes will resume january 3, 2006.. and i have to accomplish a lot of my requirements b4 that fuckn' date!! [so, help me God].. i need to graduate. i dnt wanna fail my parents! aniwei, i'm doing fine.. and dats wat matters.. give me sum kissess fellas.. my dreams are gettin' clearer.. awwwww... <3

piktuyrs.. kodak-kodakan galore:
[eat 'em if you want], <3>
love me love me
<3

sows!! 1 week nalang at matatapos na ang "community immersion" nmen!! *claps* well, sobrang nagenjoy ako, pwera na nga lang sa "init"!! hahah!! i enjoyed the company of my new classmates.
here are the captured moments!!
wohooo!!

Thank God it's SATURDAY!! I woke up 8am, have my morning routine and eat breakfast! later,after a couple of hours i'll fix my things for tomorrow's CoIm.. [wow,excited ako..charing], actually d pa ako busog, i just ate a plate of spaghetti and a glass of hot chocolate. I downloaded mp3 songs para may mpakinggan nmn ako habang nsa CoIm.. [wahahaha]..
i thought of giving him a testimonial. sana nmn i-approve nya! last time kasi he failed to accept my testimonial, [i don't know for what reason] <3> d na kasi sya ganun masyado nakakatxt, and i missed his txt msgs. i don't know what's wrong with him. pero i'm not getting tired of giving him txtmsgs! sana nga lang malaman nya un! and sana mapatawad nya ako. i hope he's happy right now! un lang ang imporatnt for me, and malaman ko na happy sya. wala nang iba.. i found a nice song! and i can relate to this song tlga! tsuper!!! "until i get over you" by Christina Millian
and here's the best part.. it's so ouchy! but geez, i really like the song! i typical feeling of a broken hearted.. <3>

" Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here"

well, love the song! WAHAHAHA! [HUHUHHUH]

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EXTRA EXTRA

HULIKA!
Miss Camitan was caught by the camera sleeping while having Noc Duty in the Emergency Room!

shiet! i can relate to this quote!! ate rhona, send me this message!! huwallah!!
READ! READ! READ! READ!

"Just because my eyes don't shed tears,
it doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry.
just because i come out strong,
it doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.
Often i choose to pretend I'm happy so i don't have
to explain to people who would never understand.
Smiling has always been easier
than explaining why I'm sad."

WATTAH week!! i finish my enrollment! yey! and this sunday our new section will be heading to a "community immersion" in naic, cavite! we will be staying there for 2 weeks.. [fantastic!].. geezz, i really have to enjoy this! sa tingin ko ito lng ang pwedeng mging daan para makalimot ako sa mga "heartaches" ko! damn! i need to grow! i need to get out of those nasty, stupid things i used to do! graveh! i need to enjoy life! eniweiz, i have a couple of friends in my section and as a matter of fact i enjoyed their company when we had this "courtesy call" in that place. hope this next 2 weeks will be fun!
i'm planning to have a haircut! after this CoIm thing. well, i'll cut my hair [a lil' shorter].. think i need to get a new look. [wat yah tink?].. well i'm just thingking about it... <3>

i'm uber lonely today *sighs*. i woke up very early than my usual waking hours! someone's on my mind... honestly i can't get him out of my mind. idon't wanna hurt him anymore. i still care for him! but he don't even recognize that. i know i did a lot of mistakes, and i'm sorry for those stupid mistakes! :0
i still hope na sana maging good friends prin kmi, despite of the things i've done to him. it wasn't my intention na sakatan cya, sa totoo lng ayoko syang masaktan!! i really wanted the best for him, i want him to be happy kahit na with someelse. matatanggap ko yon! promise! no hurt feelings. pero gusto ko maayos ang lagay namen as "friends".. as "good friends".. that's ol.. i want us to be happy even though we separated apart. <3
well, i'm planning to go nowhere! i'll just stay here in our house. idle! hay!! i feel so boring. thanks to my friends who minded to text me, i really do appreciate them. a lot! *hugs to you guys*, i know they are my strengths. i can't live without them! *promise* i'm excited to go back to school and enjoy life! i wanted to live life! and that's my goal for this semester. to live w/o boys! yey! wonderful! *jumps* geez, im planning to change my friendster profile. i think it's uber classical and *sad*.. i wanna change into a funkier one!! wee.. *excited*
so till' next time!!

*muwahhhh*
<3jem

hearts to MCR

weee.. my chemical romance is the best! i really like this band! im not an EMO!! but i do appreciate their songs!! actually, ngdownload nku ng mga songs nila thru limewire and ang-gaganda!! sarap pakingggan. nkakaadik!! *laughs* tomoro im planning to go to my dormitory! pero ayaw pa ako pauwiin ni papa. dunno why! alis daw sya. well, bahala na tomorrow!! yes yes!! pasukan na! and im so damn excited!!! *claps* *jumps*
so bad! deviant art is under maintenance! hate it! im planning to update my account! recently im getting busy doing some photo arts and editing. is pend most of the time editing my "own" photos. weee, i know sa iba sobrang korni ng mga gngwa ko, but who the hell cares!! wahahahaha! :)
knina, we went to AIIAS, dun kme nag-sabbath with my brothers! we took some pictures of the beautiful garden and all the nice spots but unfortunately our camera run out of battery so maybe i can share the photos next tym! olriytie!!

<3
jem

claps to my blog

geez, semestral break is over. and i want to personally thank our college administrators for giving us at least 5 days of vacation! how wonderfool!! *laughs* well, im happy ksi napaaga ang pasukan! yes, dahil nababagot nku dito sa bahay! sobra! i miss my pals in school! damn, i seriously miss their company and our hang-out!! *hugs and kisses* to them!! weee! i love you guys!! i wanna enjoy my last months of being a student! yey! i'm planning to go partys and gimmiks with my friends! yes, i miss those times! nursing is really a damn course! but still, i love it! *smiles* i'll miss every1, especially my love lifes, [take note, it's plural..the "s"]..

yes, this is my second blog!*claps* i'll try to make a better layout next tym [uhhmm.. if i have time!] wee.. november 1 is ovah! i had so much fun.. and of course here are some of the "nasty and ridiculous fotos" taken!! have fun!!

<3
jem