Lazy Sunday

I hate lazy sundays. No work. No play. All sleep and eat. Life that every bastards dreams of. But not me. I realized I haven't visited rakista for a long time. Here I am updating my blog. Gusto ko lang ipost ang mga sumusunod:

Congrats Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao!
Naloka ako ng bongang-bonga sa isa sa pinaka walang katense tense na laban. I feel so happy, pero hindi ko idol si pacman ah, happy lang ako.

On the other hand, i received a text message from the Phils. Here it goes:

"Hindi lahat ng natutulog nasa kama" - Ricky Hatton

It really makes my day. Hay!

Rainy Rainy Day, Bad Bad Day

Hello rainy day. The start of the morning is quite gloomy. I woke up at around 12pm, which is excusable since the weather is really inviting. Honestly, I didn't have a good nice rest. I had a bad dream and I just don't want to share that here. It doesn't make sense but it hurts me, a little. I have been dreaming a lot lately, bad and good. I don't believe that dreams have meanings, since I have studied that dreams are the result of subconscious thinking.

I'm dreaming of going back to the Philippines lately. I missed that country and I am looking forward in going back again there, even for months. I miss my friends, the places, food, the life and my future husband. I'm planing to go back there before this year ends. Hopefully, with the help of God. I'm so excited, indeed.

Sono Molto Felice

Ian and I talked. I extremely happy. Memories noted. We haven't talked for a week, just plain text messages. I'm soooo happy.

I can't wait go back to the Phils. Before this year ends, hopefully. Waaah, I can only see hearts. Can't type anymore. Witwew.

Jogging

I've been so grateful for this very moment. At last, after so long, approximately 4 months I was able to jog again. It has been my habit to jog at least 3 times a week when I was still in the Philippines. I don't feel like gaining extra weight now that I am here. I don't want to go back again to the Philippines having extra baggage. No way, please. So I'll step up to the challenge. Good thing the weather down here goes a little warmer, at last. I was able to go out ang do my thing. My brothers accompanied me at the park on late afternoon. Jog jog jog. I feel so energized.

Photoblog this time.

The April Celebration

Today is Jake's birthday, 6th of April 2009. We went out. We ate in BurgerKing and trolled around Duomo. Since my father has work today, he wasn't able to celebrate with us unfortunately.

Holy Monday today, and the start of our Holy Week vacation. Here in Italy, it isn't considered as a holiday but good thing we started our vacation that early. Resume of classes is on the 16th.

Ian and I had a lame communication today. Bawi time , tomorrow. He has 16 hour duty by tomorrow. I'll call him. I promise. Since we ate in BurgerKing, I started to midss him and our gala days. I'll be with you soon, Mahal. Just wait. :)

Sharing Random Pictures. (More pictures in this link: http://whorishdreams.multiply.com/photos/album/20/20)

Pigra Day

Spring air is here. Day-light Saving Time (DST) is on. I'm still adjusting to the new season. I've got some rashes on my hand but it is controllable, thank God. Thanks to my local petrolium jelly. Effective cosi. I haven't accomplished a lot today. I studied a little of Chesca's notebook, which is somehow imortant. I cleaned the house, cooked for my brothers and went out to buy something from the grocery just outside our house. I planned to go out and have a stroll in via Torino for the latest sale of the town but I had a second thought. I wasn't able to go. One thing more, I had a chat with my soon-to-be husband after almost 2 days. I realized that I missed him and he is still lovable as always. Since I'm so damn pigra, I didn't attend my classes for today. I wasn't able to use by settimanale biglietto for this day, che pechatooo! Sono tropo pigra, and I don't like it. Tomorrow, I'll be more productive. I hope so.

Pictures taken yesterday at Tita Flor's house. We visited her with the cousins:

How well do you know your man?

Man: CHRISTIAN G. TABORA

1. He’s sitting in front of the TV: what is on the screen?
** PBA Talk n' Text game

2. You are out to eat: What kind of dressing does he put on his salad?
** Plain mayo and catsup.

3. What is the one food he doesn’t like?
** Tahong.

4. You go out to the bar: what does he order?
** Iced tea. Beer is prohibited.

5. Where did he go to high school?
** BPH

6. What size shoe does he wear?
** 9

7. If he were to collect anything, what would it be?
** People are People tshirts

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
** Cheese. Just, cheese.

9. What would he eat every day if he could?
** Kare-kare.

10. What is his favorite cereal?
** Coco crunch.

11. What would he never wear?
** Panty.

12. What is his favorite sports team?
** Talk n' Text.

13. Who will he vote for?
** Someone like Marcos.

14. Who is his best friend?
** Nilo.

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn’t do?
** If I deny something that I want.

16. How many states has he lived in?
** Just Philippines.

17. What is his heritage?
** Filipino

18. You bake him a cake for his birthday: what kind?
** Cheesecake.

19. Did he play sports in high school?
** Yes.

20. What could he spend hours doing?
** Eating. Working. Playing PC games.

Spring Countdown

Winter is coming to an end. As stated, transition from winter to spring is on March 22. I can feel the sun and the warmth of the it. For some, it is the most beautiful season of the year and I think it is.

It is a beautiful day. Me and my Mom went to near-by market to buy something. Market here is somehow different in the Philippines. There is no such thing as "palengke" literally. Mercato usually occupies part of the street where vendors take advantage of the season transition. They sell winter clothes at a much lower prices. And of course, we bought some. I was able to buy boots, skirts and a long sleeve shirt at the most reasonale price.

One thing more. This was issued march 3, 2009 in the daily giornale here in Milan. Yes, Philippines and it's worst side published. How dare those photographers! There is more that meets the eye in my country other than this. How come they call this photography?

Gay-ish Shots and Plans for the Day

I've got no new news for today. I just found a new application on the web ( too bad it is just a trial version). But hey, enjoy the 31 day free use! Here are the pictures I (and my sibs) got. We are literally gay.

And to sparkle a little bit of sense in this post, here are my to-do list:
1. operation clean the house ( I do it everyday fyi)
2. grocery / market showdown ( with my mom of course)
3. updating my old friendster blog (and my not-so-interesting stories in it)
4. download the latest version of adobe photoshop (just don't know it yet, we'll see)
5. catch up with my lessons (uhmm, study it is? )
6. enhance communication skills (talk with someone who would help me)
7. buy chocolates ( hate it much as I love it)
8. think of my future and my love ( I am doing it everyday)

So, till next post. Woot!

Strong Winds Won't Break the Stronger

Dear PHB,

I woke up a little bit early today. Maybe my body clock changed from waking up 12.00pm to 8.30am. which I think is better. I thought of you today, as always. It has been exactly 61 days since I hugged and kissed you. What troubles me the most is that, for that 61 days, I haven't seen you personally in front of me being with me all day. It isn't an easy situation for everybody to think. No it isn't, indeed.

For the past 15 months that we are together (excluding the 2 1/2 months that I'm here), we've been very happy and contented. I know that this is the relationship everybody is dreaming about, no quarrels and no third parties. It is so nice to know that despite our differences, we jived so well. A lot of people are happy seeing us together, but I know much more are not so. Despite this fact, we still manage to be stronger proving them that they are wrong. That is the nicest thing about us., holding on despite all odds.

I know that in this world, there are no perfect relationships. And I also admit that ours is not perfect but a "real" one. Can you tell? In reality, life has been challenging us on both sides. These are the out-of-our-control circumstances, which I'm praying that will not ruin us (and I believe will never). I'm religiously praying to God that He will strengthen us more. Every night, I ask for God's approval for our plans whether it be for the family, future. short term goals and it feels good. Knowing that despite a lot of people tearing us a part, God is ready to listen. :]

I'm holding on tightly my dear. I'm patiently waiting. And I know that you are doing the same way. See you very soon. I can't wait for that moment that I can be with you again. :]

I love you more than I can tell, and more that words can define. Godbless!

Bacio, Jem.

Responsibility Week

I am on antibiotic therapy today, I mean for the past 3 days now. I've been suffering from cough and a little of colds for the past 1 week and now I think I need to take some action. The weather down here is not that ok. It frequently changes from sunny to rainy but the temperature is still the same. Literally, it bugs much on our health, so precaution is entirely needed.

My Mom was in the hospital for almost 1 week. She isn't that ill but confinement is needed. She experienced blurred vision on her right eye so she freaked out. She visited an out-patient department for an eye check-up, and the diagnosis turned out to be Retinal Thrombosis. It wasn't that serious as per the doctor. But she needs antithrombolytic therapy to refrin it from recurring. Several lab tests are done, and it was also ruled out that she is anemic so she needs additional check-up. After a week of confinement, it turned out really favorable. Thank God she's back to work and kicking.

For the past week, I have learned that I is reallly hard to be a Mom. While she's away, I was the one who cooks, laundrys adn do house hold stuffs. It is not easy that you need to wake up early to cook food, go to the grocery and to clean the house. At least, now I canproudly say that I can somehow managed to be like one. Haha.

15th Month Anniversary

Yes. It is our day. At last we have spend almost 450 days together. Strong and kicking. I haven't been with him for almost 2 months now since we temporarily parted places but o ur hea rts are still one. I miss him so badly and I can't hardly wait to see him again.

I love you so much My Christian Tabora. You are my You. I cannot afford to lose you. :] I kove you more than I can say and much more than you know. See you very soon. :]

Hoping for the Best

I've been watching news in the Philippines lately. I realized that everything is just the same. Old news are just the same news I've heard before I left Philippines last January. Old price hikes, crimes, political issues and drastic economy.. nothing has been changed just the dates and the conflicting degrees. I felt so sad somehow, knowing that no progress still even for just a little. There is nothing to compare between news scaling here in Italy and in the Philippines, knowing that life here is extremely different and organized. How I wish that beyond this down failing economy and lonesome news, people can still manage to have a good livelihood to support themselves especially their family. The problem in our country is that there is so much to do but people with authorities and with power take advantage of what they can get from it. They focus more on their own benefits than what they can do to uplift the country somehow. There is a lot of opportunities for us to grow as Filipinos and as a country only if we unite and think of what we can do as Filipinos. It is nice to be a Filipino and I'm indeed proud to be one. Let us all pray for our country's status and for our countymen's success.

Web Geek Isn't Bad At All

Ciao. Morning today is really, extremely gloomy. For the past 2 days, the sun was really striking. All the while I thought it's gonna be permanent until now. Wasn't able to perform my taebo rituals since I slept super late last night. And as expected, woke up late as well.

I realized lately that I have lots of online accounts. Myspace, Friendster, Facebook, Multiply, Blogger, Deviantart etc. And while I am trying to check my accounts I realized that as early as 2005 I have started to conquer the World Wide Web. That time I was 18 years old. My interest in these kind of obsession came about when we have our free Internet Nav in our Mini Campus (Mamc-Sma, to give such credits, hmm). Since I was stucked being a dormitorian for the rest of my college days, I spend most of my naive time in that Lab. And so on and so forth.

Now, I have realized that I need to take good care of these accounts. Why? Because it is a good thing that when your getting older, you need to have something that you can look into refreshing more of your youthful days. I am not (definitely) saying that I am not that old. Literally I am currently 22 years old. It just so happen that I really smiled when I checked my blog posts, freidnster comments, art works way back. And now I realized that being Web Geek isn't that bad. Hehe.

Taebo On The Go!

Woke up really early today. 7am, o yes. Started my date with a twist. My Mom and I started our Palestra Sessions aka Taebo. We got our help from some videos downloaded by kind people in youtube.com. Oh, yeah, I give credits to them. For the first time in my entire stay here in Italy, this is the first time I sweat. Really. And it feels really good because of the cold weather down here. Im praying that I'll continue what we have started.

Yesterday, My Ian and I had a chat sssion. I really missed him a lot. I can see that he missed me too. How I wish I could see him again.. very soon. Later today, we'll talk again. 101% communication is what we really need for us to grow despite the distance, and I'm enjoying it though it is really depressing.

Later, I'll have my classes again. I studied my lessons past yesterday. And I hope I've got to learn more today. Hopefully, within 2 hours. Say goodluck to me, Adios!

We Are Strong, I know

It's Wednesday today. I woke up super late, 11:30am. After eating my breakfats, I started my plan to read articles in a giornale for at least 2 hours a day to gain more information. I find it very useful, for the first hour or my reading, i learned a lot of words and of course events happening around me.

For lunch, I only ate a bowl of ensalata with fresh apples and 2 chicken wings. I still manage to balance my diet. I really don't wanna get fat. Heheh.

This afternnoon, I'll be heading for school at 5:30pm up to 10:30pm. I'm pretty excited this time since I got more acquaintances compared to last week. I had 3 close friends, all girls from Brazil. I find them really nice as compared to as making friends to my fellow Pilipino. Of course, my Pilipino classmates are also nice but I just don't feel like getting close to them.

Today is February 4, almost a month away from the Philippines... and almost a month too, away from my special someone. I think of him a lot, more than he can imagine. How wish he can manage to wait for me until I finish fixing the documents for my legalization of stay here. But I have his 100% trust that we can still hold on. I love him a lot! And he is so missable.

No Deal to Absences After Yesterday

The days are really boring here. It has been 2 days since it rained snow but up to this moment, traces of it remains on the street making it hard for me to go and attend my classes. Haha, is that good enough to defend my katamaran. Kidding aside, it is February and snow raining doesn't really match. Anyhow, I'm planning to attend my evening class later. Hmm.

I'm currently working on my legalization of stay here. I know it isn't easy for I need to submit such documents making my Mom's pocket even tighter. Life here is not easy as everybody thought it to be. Food is our priority. But I make it a point that if I found items of reasonable prices, I've got to buy them. Hehe. I'm planning to go back to Phils once my multiple entry visa is approved by April. And I can't wait to get back home. I miss the important people there especially my Ian. Yey!

I'm currently cutting off my diet. Yesterday, I wasn't able to eat rice. My weight goes down from 50kg to 48.5kg, and I think I'm pretty happy with that. I'm getting used to eating salads and salami which I think is a lot healthier as compared to as eating junks. One problem I have is my never ending chocolate craving. Everytime I go to the nearby supermarket, I'm attracted to low priced chocolates that I cannot resist but to buy them. And I think, I need to restrained myself to prevent further trouble.

Keep Posted!!

got a new blog post at last!! it hasn't been a busy week for me. i have started my italian classes last week an d so far, i can surely say that it is good. i'm planning to have my blog posted in italian language someday soon. and i'm hoping that for me to accomplish that, is to have a more deticated spirit when it comes to studying. hehe.

today,febraury 2,2009, we are celebrating our 14th month anniversary. this is very significant for me because for the first time we are celebrating this event separately. but i know that the feeling is still constant and nothing has been changed except for the fact that we are far from each other. of course, though we are in this situation, we make it a point that we keep our lines open and active. the conversations that we have over the phone, voice chats and even text messages show that love still surfaces against all odds.

First Aniv

I'm suffering from LSS (Last Song Syndrome)!! All day long, I'm singing When I Grow Up by PCD. I started to miss my gimmick days with my fellas. It has been a long time since I danced on the floor.
It's a wonderful day today, though I'm a lil' bit tired. It's our First Ever Aniverssary. I'm very much overwhelmed because I didn't expect that were able to keep this relationship this long knowing that we both have tight schedules. And of course despite a lot of distractors (Hiast!) Since we were not able go out to celebrate this fantastic day, we have decided to postponed our celebration for this Thursday or Friday, hopefully. I really appreciate the efforts of my boyfriend midnight of December 02, 2008. I received a missed call and a text fromhim telling me that he is downstairs. I was surprised when I went down I saw 1 family size pizza with 2 fancy glass and a bottle of red wine. In short, we had a candle light midnight dinner. How cute!! Since I was so overwhelmed that time, I forgot to take pictures of it. It is a dinner to remember. I thank God for this wonderful gift he gave me. May God bless our relationship more!

Hop Hop!

Good thing, the week is over. it has been a long week for me( a really long week!). Yesterday, I went home late. That's why my boyfriend got really worried. Our boss from Turkey invited us for dinner in Capishe, Metrowalk. It is a fine dining resto, and we had a good freakin' time. Bonding with the office mates with cool music. The food was really good. I have a big appetite for Italian cuisine and I can't get enough of it. In short say, my whole everyday reduction program has been turned 180 degrees.
I fixin' a lot of things lately. I have a tight sked for the next 2 weeks and I don't know where to start. I've been praying that God would grant my request to be with my family. It's been a long time since we've been together. I can still remember last year, my dad was fixin' a lot of documents. And now I'm doing the same thing. And I thank God for those people who support me all the way, Mama Jo and the gang.

The week is almost over, it has gone so fast. I wish I was able to more productive, like a did before. Later tonight, I'm gonna fix my things up. Need to get ready, we'll move to another place. I believe it's a nicer place, i hope so. I am so fed up by the cockroach threats and humid fish-like smell in my old boarding house. I is really annoying. I hope we found a nicer place. :]

I just got from my weekend vacation in cavite (at my tita's house). I stayed there for two days, such a relief from the stressful and toxic city life. When having my vacation, Ian was out for an outing. He along with his highschool fellas went on an adventure somewhere in Laguna (I forgot the exact place). It was kind of a nature trip, with falls, forest and everything. I wasn't able to go with him for I want him to enjoy a the whole outing without me. It's good sometimes, to give a little space. At home, I had a super-unlimited internet access. I was able to browse and surf until 2am. I was able to download and do my all-so-nasty internet routine. It was fine. Because I slept super late, I woke up early. I was awakened by my Tita's voice, she was talking that time with my brothers in Italy. It was such a good night sleep, cold scent of coffee flowers gave me enough relaxation and comfort. :]

I'm In Love

Yes, he keeps me falling in love over and over again. I love to be with him every single hour and day of my life. I'm enjoying the times that we share laughter and moments that i cannot afford to miss out. He is the guy I'm wishing to be with for the rest of my life. I know that I'm still young to say these words, yet, I'm pretty and quite sure that with him, my life could be even more beautiful.

I've known him for quite a long time. I met him 4 years ago, he is not even my close friend or someone I used to hanged out with. We are completely strangers by heart, yet still familiar knowing each other by names since we have the same group ministry and of the same school. All I know by then that he is the "good-ol-so-silent type of guy". We never engaged in small talk neither nor go out with group of friends, not at all. I can still remember that I had a crush on him, secretly.. :] Physically, he is my type.

When I first saw him, he is with somebody. Oh, yes, he is committed during those time. Yet, it really wasn't a big deal for me. I felt happiness for both of them, since, that somebody is also my friend. Whenever I see them together, all I can say is that, they are of perfect match. Until it came to my knowing that they broke up. When that news broke my ears, I didn't feel gladness or any positive thought. It is just that i was shocked knowing the news.

We became friends, very good friends. He knows that I like him and I also know that he feels the same way. In short, our feelings are mutual and it feels so right. We've been text mates at first, yes, this is the starting point as always. I showed him my true personality, I never pretend or do some "hey-i'm-such-a-cutie-patootie type of girl".. We are not constant text mates, since he is such a busy person. What thing I learned about him is that he is a family man, which I liked the most.

Everything's going good, until one rainy morning when I received a text from him. He invited me to have breakfast with him! He fetched me in my boarding house and we chow in cafeteria. That was just the first time we talked and exchanged thoughts. I wasn't comfortable by that time since that was my first time, yet it was the best. Until then, we became constant text mates and we always see each other more often. We became very close to each other until I feel that I really liked him.

December 02, 2007, 8:30pm, that's the official time and date that we started and decided to continue on the first step of our relationship. I never regret that we became close and now even closer. He has thought me everything, things that made me a better me.

I love him. He loves me. And that's the most important thing.

2008. Yes, and after 3 months and 30 days finally I just got in... Blog Updating!

Just to give you some heads-up of what's in and out (literally..), persons got in and out of my life.

Others are expected most are unexpected, but yet, i was able to cope up.

I can say that I'm all productive this time, challenging job, great relationship and nice friends. It's Jam Packed! And I'm so lucky enough that it is turning out in the way that I wanted, more than I really expected. :]

The day is quite boring... I woke up late 10am, ate my breakfast right away and do the internet hopping. :] I don't really know why i get so much pleasure from this non sense thing. But whatever that is, I'm enjoying it. And that really matters. Agree? I'm graving for chocolates! Geezzz, yesterday i bought 4 kinds of chocolate bars!! I'm an addict, i know. :] harhar... I hope i won't get fat. Hindi un bagay sa akin! :] Scary thing! Christmas is coming to it's existence, and I can't feel it! Too bad, I'm spending it without my family. I'm a family bonded buddy, I admit it. Well, I guess I really have to enjoy my Christmas alone, with just my relatives. Thank God for my Mama Jo and company. :] Apir!

Heaven is Here

Gawd! My CCN Training is almost over. Need to finish 1 more exam, finale! :] Wahaha.. I'm thinking of my next plan, hmmm, need to find a job, i need to earn money now! it's about time i think. I got my license, my PRC certificates by December 20 and Training certificate... I uber inspired this past few days. I so happy. :]

December 2 is the date. Very significant. It's the day I finally entrusted my heart, again. I love him, and i mean it. :] I'm so much in love. We jive together, and I think that's pretty important. I trust him and he trusts me. What more can I ask for. May the good Lord bless us. :]

Call it us. :]
Christian Tabora + Jemielyn Camitan

Gawd! I'm been so damn busy. I've been fixin my xanga, multiply, fs and ms accounts! my CCN training is almost over, got 1 month more then need to have a job.. :] yihee, need to earn money, life is difficult nowadays. agree? I'm planning to have a job exprience in the same hospital,so i don't need to make major adjustments. Crappy, all familiar!

My move just arrived. And I'm glad my family is whole again. :] We hang out and eat together. How sweet! This November 17, my mom along with my bros and dad will be leaving to Italy. Awtz.. Need to learn how to be independent. I know I can! Ako pa! :]

Absent ako ngayon. :} And so?! Nothing! I feel like being absent. As of now, got 2 absents na... :] But it's no big deal, really.

Right now, I'm contemplating on my life. I know, this is not normal for me. I usually go out on my own, with my friends and hell, i don't even care on what other people say about me. It's their opinion, and i believe that it is none of my business. During the course of my life, i realized that happiness and contentment goes along. Just like what other people say, "Just enjoy what you are doing, and all the rest follows". But what if your happy with what you are doing but the truth is your on the wrong track?! Would you still hold on to what makes you smile? Would you numb yourself from the fact that your dumb stupid? Stupid just for the sake of being happy?! It is like staying out in the rain, it feels so good, but defenitely it will make you sick. Right now, I'm thinking of having a decision. It kills me.

NURSING BOARDS EXAM RESULTS out! :3 and i passed! YAHOO! :3 i owe this to God. grabe, answered prayer talaga ito. the exam was harder than expected, but 70% of mamc-avant garde made it. i'm so damn proud of my alma mater. i don't conmsider this as "chamba".. we deserve it, i know, seriously! compared with other schools, mamc got a very nice rate standing... :3 yahoo.. for sure, naloloka na ang college of nursing sa mamc. hay! :3 after the long wait, the results went out just right. and i'm so thankful that most of us passed! see you guys on october 2! oathtaking, that is! my gala uniform is not yet fixed, goodness!! but i'm super duper excited! advance happy birthday gift for me! but of course, there were some people who didn't make it. and it hurts because some people are close to us.. :'8 i know how they are feeling right now, naganticipatory grieving na ata ako before!... but hey! i believe that God has a major plan for everyone.. :] more than what you expected to be, right? so let's count the blessings!
plans plans? well, i'm busy working on my student visa to italy. now that i made it in local boards, i'm planning to have my masteral degree in italy. master of arts in nursing! :3 i hope it's God's will! :3 bless me..

Heroes day today :3 make the most of it. i have my work later, aha! double pay, it is! :3 i miss my college friends aka dhung and dhays! :[ i miss our hang outs and fun moments. hay! grabe, gusto ko na sila makita ulit :3 heniweiz, i think i'm a freak! i almost slept 14 hours! bangag na nga ata ako.. but it feels good.. super well rested! :] much work to do later. when i woke up, nabasa ko ang text sa akin ni Raymond Dhung.. "Dhay, alam ko masyado kang busy. Magpahinga ka naman.". Well, sobrang natouch ako sa text nia.. and i realized that i should rest too. hehe :3 namiss ko tuloy ang mga kaibigan ko. anyhow, i know we'll be seeing each other again. can't wait to see them! :3

happy moments! :3

ciao everyone! :] got a long day sleep... this week is kinda weird for me. i'm livin' like a vampire! and i love it.. i've been so damn busy and i find it hard to get some time with my self. go shopping, pampering myself, it sucks. really! but when monetary stuff enters in, that's different. i was like counting days before the next salary will be. and that motivates me.. that is what you call "money hunger"... it's like i'm living independently now. i'm spending my own money. i need to budget everything, as in, budget my daily allowances up to my "vices" and "vanity stuffs"... and i'm working on it.. i hope i'm doing it right.. :] Bless me.. :]
i'm working on my Italian visa application. i really gotta go with my mom! :] more money, more opportunity and experience. that's why i'm graving for it. it is a student visa. so i don't have to worry much of the requirements! everything will be my mom's responsibility.. :] i'm so damn excited... yeahyeah! :]

foto chits! coming...

holla! sunday, it is! jem is so damn happy! the 10-day foundation training is now over. and the whole 3-10 pioneeers made it. we all passed! yahoo! :] and so, we can proceed to the much harder step, an extremely complicated phase, [tadah] product training! we will be moving to the other building. next to taipan, the PT will be in Prestige Pent House.. :] and i need more powers this time! i can do it!our sked was also changed! it will be 10pm to 7am this coming week. hell right? hope it'll be fun.. hope so :]

heniweiz, the tension in nursing board exams is rising! results will be out by august 15 or 17, according to hearsays. :[ very scary though.the eaxm was twice harder than expected. i did my best during the exam, and i know that whatever the results will be, God still has this great plan in stored for me. So, God's will be done.

later tonight, we'll be hitting trinoma :] been there for 3xs already. the place was like the typical ayala malls. very nice! :] i'm planning to buy something.. eniweiz, mom gave us extra budget for shopping purposes :]

olrytie, it's saturday people! It's so damn boring, really!:] the week that had past was described as the "turtle week", and i just don't know why.. :] im so damn busy with my foundation training... well, training is fun, but not quite. it's like we were doing activities for 8 hours and other funny stuffs. far from my expectations. hope i'll pass the FT for me to proceed to the next step. anyhow, about the people in my class, i find them great and friendly. :] i never had a hard time dealing with these people even they are 2 to 3 years older than i am. hehe.
okay okay okay, moving along, i heard that august 15 will be the judgement day! :] the releasing of the 2007 june nursing boards results! and AMOF there were only 40 thousand examinees passed the exam. almost half of the examinees failed. and that's awful! :[ very frightening! early this morning i texted my friends about this, and they were like scared just like me! well, i know God was with me that time when i was answering the whole exam thing! that's why i need to be confident. just continue praing for me guys! :] oryt?
so, i need to end up my journal now. till' next time! ciao! :]

Sunday is my day.. Aww.. I'm missing 2 special people in my life, but hey! i'm not gloomy today.. :] okay, my day is better than before, i woke up at 7:30 in the morning. i got 7 hours of sleep,hmm,sufficient indeed!! :], had my full breakfast and tadah.. may personal vice, The Internet Hopping!! last night i was supposed to enter a post in my dashboard. but! but! somebody got my fuckin' attention.. the poser, the copycat and the insecure girl. i don't really know her personally, but she got the hell out of me! PAINTBOX.COM? ADOBEPHOTOSHOP DESKTOP SCREENSHOT WITH PICTURES EKLAVOO? watthefuck! :] Stolen ideas, kawawang nilalang, such a nutshell, [toktoktok].. hope she's get tired of it eventually.. anyhow, the "Eyes of Magdalene" Group is out! nah.. big thanks to Mac who gave the group it's voluptuous name! mac is really a real and cool friends of mine. i love this girl a lot... bakal ito, pareho kami.. hehe.. kidding aside she's really admirable!! :]

howdy?$#@ i'm hella super duper emotional today!! and i'm hating it... it's a killer. i mean, he's not really mine. but why am i acting like his gf?? wtf di ba? teh fact that we are not commited i think it's wrong to feel this way. we only see each other twice or even once a week...he's so damn busy with his student life! and it cracks me. really!! in a very wrong way... it sucks!!!
anyhow, i'll be starting my call center job next week.. hey! i'm employed! rejoice people.. :] hehe.. and alast i'll be very busy, no time to be uber emotional... xet xet xet!! :]
wish me luck guys.. thanks for droppin' by :]

Different connotations. It's quite frustrating having to watch what you say because every other word has different connotations. Homonyms frustrate me as well. Yes, these are the words that sound the same but have totally different meanings. We should all walk around with a monitor on our chest to caption every single thing we say. While we're at it, we should have a disclaimer ready in case someone misunderstands our intended rhetoric. Or maybe I should have a sign on me at all times that says, "Not really meant for you." There are times when I write on a topic that may be out of character. Usually, when I do, I write from a neutral person's perspective. Just because I haven't experienced that specific event doesn't mean that I haven't been around those that have and seen the damage. I don't want to have to censor every entry I write because someone might feel insulted. If you feel like my post is directed towards you, it's probably because you're guilty. You should be.

PSALM 27 : 11-12 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies. Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty. Whom shall I fear? I have so much respect for those who seem like they have every right to be angry at God yet continue to worship him. I heard a minister read this verse at the hospital during my shift the other day. I couldn't help but smile.

With all the recent discoveries of my post-adolescent years standing on the pre-adult plateau, I needed something like that to slap me back into reality. I really shouldn't even take anything to heart because there are those who will continue to "breathe out cruelty" on me. All I can do is take it in stride and give it to Him. It's up to Him as to what the repercussions will be in the long run.

I've always been one to take criticism to heart. I'm so quick to give it, but when it comes back to me, I crawl up into a ball and question myself. Once I've had enough time to do so, that's when I fight back. Re-energized, I'll attack with so much vengeance and resentment, which just makes the situation even worse because all the issues come out at once -- no holds barred. Attacking without much thought.

I can't please everyone. It's such a difficult task to do. All I can do is live life in accordance to how I think it should be lived. Someone always tells me, "You know the difference between right and wrong." I do. It's just difficult when there are those who try to take me down and succeed in doing so by "breaking the rules." It makes me frustrated that they've done something to me while breaking the rules and continue to get away with it. That's when I realized that it's not up to me to judge and punish their acts. It's up to Him. All I can do is believe, toughen up, and take whatever is thrown my way.

I continue to struggle on a daily basis though because of the trials that I've had to go through dealing with forgiveness and learning to overlook hurtful words and actions directed towards me. Slowly, but surely, I've learned to accept things the way they've been dealt to me. With a few cliches learned, nothing is ever quite as it seems, it's easier to forgive than forget, sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me, I'm just living life and learning more each day.

okey okey okey, at last, i made my latest post. aha!! :] well, things are happening fine for me now.. [haha, unlike before], i will be starting my job this 23th and i'm not that excited... why??? i just don't know. i was excited before but things are different now. i mean, i realized that this is life, take it more serious baby!! i miss schooling, really!! :[ i wanted to kick back to school. i missed the old faces there, the cramming moments and the problematic days. i just wish i could go back to those days.. :] anyhow, life is like that!! just face okey?? this is not a blog-worthy post, well, anyway, nothing!!! :] have a happy fuckin' day!!

this is not something i consider blog-worthy... oh well..

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for a second there i sort of wished it was you.. it wasn't. but life goes on.. i'll keep on walking until something, someone, or some weird phenomenon makes me stop for a while..

"but why am i the only one standing stranded on the same ground?" -Kitchie Nadal

i'm not happy.. and i how happiness finds me. i'm dying.. [huhuh] i'm such a stupid ass, i'm good i know but why do i feel this way.. i feel like i'm a mess.. crap!!

i'm feelin' bad lately, i don't know why.. [weird eh?] it's like a depressive syndrome or whatever... maybe it is just a result of a typical hormonal balance happening in women... i'm busy digging my forums & thank God, i'm starting to get over something... ngayon pa lang, nakikinita ko na na after the board exam, i will be very busy surfing the net... well, nothing much to say.. i'm just updating this damn blog.. thanks for reading this anyway.. ciao!!
camwhoring is ON:

i believe that in loving someone, it just end up in 2 ways, the happy and the sad endings. hard to say, some love relationship just end up nothing. after a long time of laughters and fun, ups and downs, relationships fall and the bad thing about it is that, is hard to rebuild it again.
it's hard to severed the heart who cares for you a lot for the heart might soon get tired and can't endure it no more! yes, it's true that a true heart can withstand any obstacles and can go on even if it hurts. but when the heart gets tired and realizes that the one it cares for doesn't even care about it all... it might lose its feelings and change it's resolve!

weee, out of the great boredom, i've made a simple wallpaper. haha, it was my 2nd time to make like this. [to check it out, try to visit my dA]...

*mwua*

lemme see, it's election day tomorrow, and since i'm not a registered voter [i'm such a kiskass ohh my!], i can't practice my right to vote. but, let's just assume okey? i'm planning to vote for [only] 3 senators whom i really admire:

first, Loren Legarda, an opposition, such a great and smart woman. she knows to fight for what she think is right. and in the first place, gogogogo girl power!
second, Joker Arroyo, the poeple's dragon, that's what they call him. i'am really amazed by the laws he had proclamed and everything. really a great and awesome leader.
and lastly third, Trillanes, he was imprisoned because of rebellion, but still i believe that he has something and a potential to become a good leader.
i won't vote for anything else. hehe, but sorry for these guys, they will miss a vote from me. wahaha!!! let's just hope that tomorrow's election will be peaceful.. Godbless our country. hey! i'm proud to be pinay!! yahooooo.. :]

gracious! it's mother's day tomoro.. and whew, can't great my mom personally. how sad.
the day after tonight, is gonna be big! wahaha, i mean big, in a sense that i really have to make a big move!! need to rush on studying for the local boards. it's such a stress, but G i'm so excited! i miss my studying habits when i was still in my lower college years, were in waking up 3am and browsing, memorizing notes is such a habit.
well, now, i'm missing someone. and gosh, i miss him a lot. i just don't know why and how but i do. special feelings are still there and it can't be taken away so easily. and i hope he misses me too, just as i do. [huhuhu..]

til' next time dudes.

well, i thank God! i'm almost finish with my requirements and in a short while i'll be goin' to apply.. geezzz, this is it! here the board exam goes... and so we have to make it... so God bless us! <3

let me see.. hmmmkay, yeah and my whole groovy family got that cool swimming escape. we really had fun, eventhough we just stayed there for about 3hours. [haha].. it was like i was relieved of everything, the stress and all that, burdens and stuffs.. the board exams is a great stressor, and if u can't carry the feeling, it will screw you to death. i mean, i wasn't ready yet to take the board exam. it was like i'm very busy all this time rushing through my requirements. sick! and so my mom told me that i should decide whether i would take it or not. all the decision is up to me... [hehe] and now i'm thinking if i would continue with it... im glad i have supportive family, very understanding. thank God! and i dunno yet what to do.. so i'm asking God to enlighten me. that's all.. till' next time!! ciao ciao! <3>ured moments.VILLA FELICIDAD, is great!

it's me again. i woke up at 6:15 in the morning. geezzz and i feel relieved. i was like dying the whole day yesterday. my migraine is killing me, and i hate it. my mom told me to wear my eyeglasses,because she thinks that my headache is because of my eyes, but hey, it sucks. i feel like i'm uber ugly and weird.. and so i decided not to use it. [hehe].. yesterday, we went to novaliches and the fuckin' heat of manila killed us. it was like we are travellin' through the desert island. nakakamatay!! i wasn't able to attend the revu for about 3days. but i promise to "make bawi" of everything. i'm going to finish half of volume 1.. hehe.. i'm at the 1/4 of the book... go jem!
tomoro i'll be heading back to manila... please pray for me! see yah! <3

whoa! i can't believe i'm still alive! life after graduation is two times crappy [and sometimes 10 times]... requirements requirements requirements! damn, i need to accomplish everything before it's too late! [haha]... i'm rushing so that i can apply for the local boards' application. and how i wish i could carry everything well... seriously speaking i'm not yet ready to have the board exam. as a matter of fact, all this time, my life is occupied with completions of OB scrubs. [huhuhu]... well, im thankful that i had my OR operations done, that offers a lil' relief [whoooo..] i still thank God for the strength His' giving me. i'm still surviving. my plans are now laid in God's hands... yesterday, my tita gave me her late graduation gift! and i'm so happy that she gave me this "lucky pig" haha... they believe that this will bring good luck, and i can't believe that i'm hoping that this gift will bring me something! funny isn't it? heheh... ________________________________________
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yeah, i moved into a new house and i'm glad i'm no longer stucked in that old dormitory building. for my first week, it's kind of an adjustment but i am content. hehe! i enjoy the company of my magugulong housemates. it's like we're watching tv ol d tym and cracking the house by singing videoke. fun fun fun, making sure that i'm occupied at all tyms. yeah, getting busy enough to forget the aches of life. and i'm glad i'm really doing great! i hope for better improvement this week.. and that's my prayer! week pasted so slowly, i don't know why, but it really does for me. it's like the clock ticks 3seconds per second! awww... sobrang nakakapago0d din and week, we have to prepare costumes for Pilipinana, retro, casual and formal seminars.. and that sucks! but i enjoy a 'lil.
today, im planning to go back to pasay.. and we'll be having the last ever comprehensive examination! damn! need to study... so far, i haven't studied even a topic. goodluck to me!! ciao!

we'll be having our last batch retreat. and yes, it will be in Baguio! yebah.. that will be my first tym on that place. so it's such an accomplishment for me. [hehe].. im so excited. but of corz, along with that excitement... i know i'll be missing important people. imagine, we will be out for 4 days! and that is almost a week.. quite long huh..' our theory lectures and duty requirements are over. moreover, we will have a hard tym studying for our local board exam. and watdah, i'm so nervous! [~.~] hehe. very nervous! but yeh, im planning to do my very best to be one of the local nursing board's top 10. wat a dream ayt? lmao.. harhar! this thursday, we will defend our nursing research, thesis, in short.. quite stressful for me, coz i need to edit everything and study every detail. damn, it's so hard being a leader. . whrooor!! say goodlak to d goddess! "charing"

so long.. kisses!

hello!!!
another day! hay! last nyt i'm so busy burning cds! well, what's the point? nothing.. it's just a release of stress and watsoever emotions. teh fact that i'm rushing to grad requirements, i still have this bashing time for my own personal interests. music and photography! but of cors i promise to fill my requirements on time.. but now isn't the ryt time.. maybe next week will do. lmao!! this 3pm i'll be having my duty "agen".. and who the hell in this world is as unfortunate as we are, my gudness, our CI this week is as toxic as ever.. i think this week will be a hell week for us.. pugay kinamay tlga!! pagnganamansinuswetee!!! well, pls pray for our block.. amen ..
this february, we'll be having our intramurals.. and damn i'm so effin' excited.. graooahhh!! my friends and i are goin' to prepare a cheering "kuno".. that i think this will be our last.. so give enaf patience folkz.. yupyup! <3 practice will start this wednesday i think... wehahaha!! i'm so excited.. stress release.. hehe..

maderpaker! all the while i thought every things gonna be alryt, but i was damn wrong.. i started to feel that he's goin' so far that i could even feel that he cares for me... i believe that i've done a lot of mistakes, but do you think it deserves me ryt? when i look back on tyms wen were 2geter, i'm squeezing out every detail that maybe i've done a wrong turn "agen".. but i couldn't think of any! dats why i have a lot of questionings... and it hurts a lot.. realizing that i didn't even take a shit out of somewhere or some one.. my friends told me that maybe he realized that i wasn't the one for him.. and it's time to move on. well, easy to say, hard to do.. i'm not that type that letting go is just like throwing a candy wrapper in a trash can.. it's not easy.. and now im drowning from insecurities causing me to fall back...
i'm starting to get used to it.. im getting tired.. :(

few hours from now, i'll be heading back to pasay... damn! the whole xmas and new year vacation is so "bitin". it sucks! scholling agen and agen and agen... wel, im a graduating stud, so expect me to be uber busy w/ fuckin' requirements, finals and everything.. and that will make my 2007 so TOXIC. I started fixin' my things from undergarments to unifroms... including my "kikay" stuffs and everything..and now i'm having my last internet hopping.. weee.. i did some photo manips and blogging... wahahahaha... i'll miss the times that i spend almost 8 hours in front of the computer doin' nothing.. just "kalandian"... and above all i'll miss my cheap photoshoots... wel, stil im enjoying that stupid thing. after i graduate and have some job, my first salary will be reserved for buying a "high-tech" cam... as a matter of fact, my dream camera is worth 65thousand pesos only *choked*.. and how i wish i can buy that.. hehe.. Godbless me.. it's my passion.. lallalalala.. i miss my blockmates and all my churvah tropapipz.. *sighs* happy moments w/ them.. <3
*hearts*

haller.. hours nalang it's 2007 nah.. [excited,huh?].. well,i'm uber full. i ate almost 6 sticks of hotdogs.. [haha..].. my tummy is bigger than before.. watatah!! well, im planning to go back to pasay tomoro or maybe the next day. hay.. dameng mga gagawin.. whuuuhhh!#$%&
angela came over [op cors w/ my tita] she's hella cute.. but a lil' bit shy. she's a camera lover, hehe, like her cousin , ehemmmmm... pictures:

^innocence^
^angela and jem^

new layout

"HEARTBREAKER"

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advance happy new year to us!! 2007 is coming.. and let's ol party! yabah!! *hehehe* and so, my new years resolutions are still processing.. i hope this time magiging makatotohanan na sya.. hehe!!! graveh, antalaw ko today! cguro every hour kumakaen ako... i dunno why.. pero gnun tlga cguro pag-inlab.. weee!! and maybe it's because i have this inspiration to eat and eat and eat... staying in the house for almost a week is eber boring. teh cold wind in my bedroom plus teh cold stiffining music of the dresden dolls kills me to death.. hehe.. btw, i enjoy their "gothic" music.. some sort of relaxation to my ears.. like a tralala... aside from the dresden dolls i accidentally downloaded a musical from Lacuna Coil.. it's quite fine.. very stylish sleek type of musicale.. tomoro, i'm planning to register for the next election.. goshie im 20 now and i need to VOTE.. weee its my right, ayt? bye for now... ciao!! kisses!^look!! headband, teh best baby!!^

LET'S MAKE LOVE

it's cold outside... weeee.. i like the weather!!! *giggles* my stomach is not feeling well.. geezzz.. i'm havin***... hahah.. very funny! i almost ate half a bottle of cheeze spread... [hihi]... pinapak ko lng... how weird isn't it.. enjoy nmn.. goody!

ambilis ng araw ngayon.. graveh.. d ko namalayan. siguro masya lang ako today.. hehe.. yipey!* becaUSE of my g**damn happiness i cleaned my room.. make some arrangements and changed the linens as well as the curtains... whoooaaalaaahh.. brand new room.. happy sleeping later.. <3 style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">bagong buhay!! vavooooommm!!

whayyyyy!! at last!! e2 na aking latest posting dito. and SHIEEETTT!!! [allow me to use that nasty expresyon!]... im uber happy this time! and don't ask why! i'm overwhelmed.. dat's ol...
[bow]
well, i'm dreaming of having a short hair.. and yes! [this is it]... eto ' na cia... super short hair! damn im lovin' it.. and i don't hella care for other's sarcastic comments.. as long as i'm enjoying it.. everything doesn't matter [intiendes].. i feel a lil' lighter.. watever!!! and here's the details:
dECEMBER 24,2006, David's Salon, SM Dasmarinas, 3:30pm
hahaha [very funny]
classes will resume january 3, 2006.. and i have to accomplish a lot of my requirements b4 that fuckn' date!! [so, help me God].. i need to graduate. i dnt wanna fail my parents! aniwei, i'm doing fine.. and dats wat matters.. give me sum kissess fellas.. my dreams are gettin' clearer.. awwwww... <3

piktuyrs.. kodak-kodakan galore:
[eat 'em if you want], <3>
love me love me
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